I don't have a clear goal, but I want to hold it forever if possible. Which means no more prostitutes for me. Do you think the nofap challenge includes no sex too? Like the more I stay away from fap the more the urge for having sex I get. Since I have never hold my fap before the last year. Or I never knew it was necessary to do so. Well I am 38 years old now, I feel like I ruin all my life, I look back, and I see nothing achieved in my life... I have this two sides of me, one part of me wants to be pure logic, and start rebuilding my life and try to do something in live. The other part is pure hate, and wants to fill the holes in my life with sex, which I almost never had much to begin with, the only sex I had mainly was with prostitutes, and maybe less than 10 times with normal women in all my lifetime... Provably hiding behind faps was the main reason for this. By the way how do you set your counter in this site, or how do you use the counter for NoFap and no pmo?
@javier chomer: instead of cluttering the forums with a new thread for each day's update, I'd strongly request that you rename this thread from "NoFap day 2 , 9 hours, 30 min" to something non-"day-specific," like "Javier's Journal" -- which is better suited for a multi-day journal thread. (Please let me know if you need help with such a renaming.) Also, I have taken the liberty of moving this thread into the "Ages 30-39" age-category of journal-threads.
Nice. But I think that a title that is a bit less generic than "NoFap journal" would be better. Preferably something unique that friends who will hopefully soon start "following" you will be instantly able to associate with you, when they search for "New Posts" or receive a "notification" indicating a thread-update. This can be anything containing your name (like "Javier's Journal"), or any special title which uniquely summarizes the theme of this journal (like "No more prostitutes for me!"?)
Today I fapped after after 3 days without fapping, and it felt fapping great. Today after inviting to many girls for coffee I got quite horney and fapped at my moms house. I think my main problem is for not understanding people. Today I went to the gym, then swimming and then I did atheletics with the team. I feel great being with other people. While being horney I talk to some random girls in the street and invite them for coffee, without any success, yet I was very happy to be able to push myself to do this aproachs, I think that me being horney was what pushed me to do this. I was so desperate that I wanted to yell ANOBODY WILL HAVE SEX WITH ME.... I dont want to cause problems, so I keep it down as much as I could. I exchanged some looks with some girls at the street. Even though I make tons of sports, what I need the most in my life is try to talk to people and make friends and being sociable. I think apart from lifting weights at the gym I have to push myself to talk to girls and to be friendly and to smile, and try to invite some girl for a coffee at the gym.
Hi is it possible to have this yournal back in rebooting. I dont like having my journal in the 30-39 ages?
I cant handle rejections. I have been too much time inside my own bubble. I hurts my pride so much to be rejected. I try to talk to an old woman today, she didnt give me even the time, and .... I wanted to punch her in the face.... but I dont want problems.... I was going to say who the fck do you think you are to talk to me like that... I was so fcking pissed off...and full of rage.... I almost got into a fight with a taxi driver... Later on my rage was building on so I smashed my cellphone against the ground... now it will cost me around 120 dollars to fix it... I am feeling so much left out in this forum....like no one is checking what I write ...
