My introduction

Hello everyone,

I just signed up to this and wanted to start by sharing a bit of myself and explaining why I am here. I am a 38 year old man living in NYC. I am in a very loving relationship for now 28 months. In my 38 years I have been in 3 other serious relationships. Each one started very lustful. We would have great sex for the first year or so but then I would back away. I continued to watch porn and I masturbated as a way to keep me from cheating. I thought it was better to keep it at home than to cheat on any of my girlfriends. But after awhile, the sex continued to disappear so I ended up cheated. Each of my past girlfriends began and ended the same way. I am at a point now with my current girlfriend where we no longer are having sex. Yet, I am trying my best not to repeat past mistakes so I've seen a sex therapist. During my sessions I have realized my addiction to online porn. Through these talks I have started to understand the reasons behind my recurring issue with sex and, more importantly, intimacy. Since I began speaking to my therapist about this a month ago, I have stopped watching online porn, or any other porn and have also stopped masturbating. Yet, with all this said, I still find it difficult to get the intimacy back with my partner. I find it hard to just shut down my brain so to allow my love and attraction towards her take hold. I hope to learn from all of you ways to get that back. Thank you so much for this space so to share about this particular matter. Please feel free to reply with suggestions or any other questions.

 

Thank you so much Yoshaay. I will look into the stories in the subforum. I'm going through the site now.