On my week 3 journey. Already relapsed 4 weeks ago. Feeling the urge just say eff it. Question.... Would it be cheating if I went to a massage parlor that is known for "happy endings"?
This is a question a sex addict would ask, not judging, it takes one to know one. This is worse than fapping pal, for God sakes you should pray I don't lay a page of shit down here that would implode your mind. One step at a time. Only thing I got for you is this book recommendation, READ IT, MORE OF CONCERNED DEMAND REALLY: Breaking the Cycle: Free Yourself from Sex Addiction, Porn Obsession, and Shame I don't pull punches but don't for a second think I judge you pal.
I have also had this thought, no judgment here either but this is just a kind of high fidelity 'porn'. It's still a 'fake' experience with no real emotional connection thats why you have to pay for it. Thanks for asking the question it's enabled me to think clearer about it too.
Just to be clear, I didn't ask that question as a form of judgement. It was just an honest question. A question not necessarily expecting an answer, but rather a question that you should ask yourself. You are attempting to recover from an addiction in which having a happy ending from someone will not help. Unless that person is your significant other, there wouldn't be any feelings involved and therefore would seem unnatural to me personally. Tiredofmeyet, please don't take any offense to my question, I felt like I had to post this for you to ask yourself. I'm not the type of person to judge and I have no right to, but I'm also not the one to sugarcoat anything. I agree with Murphy, if you truly don't know the answer to that question then you should read up and educate yourself on the way your brain is affecting you. Good luck my brother and remember, you are stronger than you think , just push yourself and BELIEVE YOU CAN DO IT, TAKE THINGS DAY BY DAY, HOUR BY HOUR, MINUTE BY MINUTE IF U HAVE TO.
