starting over

Discussion in 'Rebooting - Porn Addiction Recovery' started by chivar, Oct 14, 2016.

  1. chivar

    chivar Fapstronaut

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    Hey guys. How ya'll doing. I'm new to this site. But I'm also one who doesn't want to deal with pmo. I started in August but then after 40 days...well....i failed.starting over. It seems more difficult now.
     
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  2. Awakening123

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    40 days is awesomeman. I took me years to reach 30 days for first time. Keep on trying and you will get through. Good luck!
     
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  3. chivar

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    So what happened on day 30? What made YOU start over again.
     
  4. Denzel889

    Denzel889 Fapstronaut

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    I was on a 104 days streak and then reset
     
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  5. chivar

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    What I really want to know is what it was like for you guys on that last day. What was in you mind when you just "lost it".
     
  6. Awakening123

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    I went 40 days and then couldn't take it anymore so relapsed. Once you start nofap you can never go back to pmo ever again doesn't matter how long it takes to get out of the addiction.
     
  7. Denzel889

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    I hope you are right and I think the same
     
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  8. Denzel889

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    I don't know exactly... Probably the habbit of quitting pmo wasn't in place enough
     
  9. chivar

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    On my last day. I didn't really know what happend. The whole night I couldn't sleep. The whole night I just had an erection. And a burning kind of feeling. When it was morning , my heart was not acting normal. I think its because of all the blood it had to pump the whole night because of the erection. So I thought it would be best to just have an orgasm. I did it without watching porn or even fantasizing. That was at least a " +" for me. So yeah that's what it was like on my last day. I didn't give up because of lust..it just was too much for my brain,heart and body to handle that day
     
  10. Silverthorn

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    all i want to do is be able to get hard in the presence of a real naked woman touching me. It seems like i need porn.
     
  11. chivar

    chivar Fapstronaut

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    Wait....so you get hard with porn and not with a naked woman touching you????
     
  12. Denzel889

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    You will be able when you will quit pmo for at least for a month
     
  13. Denzel889

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    But for best result quit pmo forever
     
  14. Silverthorn

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    that sounds really tough. but it's getting rid of pleasure. It feels so good to masturbate but at the same time, it feels like a waste of time and can lead to depression. It's a catch 22. I dont know what to do. One month seems really tough to not even touch my dick for an "almost orgasm"

    I'm surprised that so many people have this same problem
     
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  15. Denzel889

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  16. Silverthorn

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    thanks. but man, it feels good to masturbate to porn. that's why people love it. after years of doing this, it has warped my brain. i dont feel like i have to get real women because it fills the void when you get to fantasize.

    i cant get it up when there is a woman i paid for doing everything. it makes me look bad and not manly. I have to fix this problem. this is the only way i found out i had the problem. which is crazy.