Day 13 Today was kind of an up and down day. I had a dream last night that was pretty explicit, so I woke up with a little more urge than usual wanting to PMO. It didn't help that I was at home for most of the day. I was also a little frustrated because I'm the head of a club, and the people I was trying to delegate to kept flaking, so that made me pretty frustrated and didn't help my cause. I think I'm just learning I'm in a pretty emotionally unstable heightened by me abstaining from PMO. It'll take time for be to reach a baseline again, because it seems everything is extra emotional lately.
Day 15 Sorry I didn't post yesterday!! But I met my second goal of two weeks free omgosh I haven't even been thinking about PMO the last couple of days. Sunday was spent really busy with friends and outside the house, so I hardly spent any time at home alone. It was much needed. Monday I was back to work, so it did not take much time alone at home again. It's been good guys! I'm so encouraged. I am starting to figure out other triggers, such as using my computer in bed. But it's good that they're revealing themselves so I can take the necessary steps to stop them now.
Day 17 Gahhh I keep forgetting to post. Sorry, this week has been crazy. But the good thing is that I've been spending most of my time outside of the house, so there hasn't been much time at all to PMO. Thankfully, it's all been pretty smooth. It's nothing to brag about honestly, but it's the first couple of steps in the right directions for now. Need to keep going!
Day 19 Sorry I forgot to post again! I've been having to wake up mad early lately (4:00am) for work, and I've ended up just heading to bed immediately when I get home. It's good in the sense that I don't even have time to be tempted because I'm so exhausted. But I think the trouble comes when I try to stay up to do things when I'm exhausted. I already have had a lot more explicit thoughts randomly go through my mind when I'm not doing anything, and I see myself looking at certain girls' bodies for longer periods of time. At this point, I've been able to fend it off. But I need to know I'm in a mentally weak state at this point because of my work. I need to stay committed to being both mentally and physically vigilant in my fight against addiction!
It was lovely to see your progress in this new start.I would like to point out that if you start giving space to these thoughts they'll eventually grow and overcome you and throw you right into the same place of guilt.Our mind will lay traps.Yes it does, to feed its subconscious self because we have let it programmed like that.So I would suggest you to forget thinking about how many days you've made it till now.Try getting a little more calm.Tell yourself that you are not strong mentally at the moment so you have to be extra conscious at The moment.We all very well know that the cure our mind seeks is not the cure.It's just a trap.Get good sleep.Try listening to Not Afraid by Eminem every third day.And the most effective thing would be to watch other's journals.It hardly takes any time.You'll read what others are writing and that will make your subconscious mind even more alert.Try helping others.It feels good.I joined This community 2 days back.I used to masterbate over 20 times a day.Idk if you believe it but I'm sort of like that.So just hang in there, Get calm.Try to stay active here.Sermons and blogs are passive helper.Personal communication is the active one. More strength to you1
Day 1 Hey all. So sorry I haven't been posting. I actually made it to my goal of 21 days, but then I ended up MO'ing to some explicit comics on my 22nd day (yesterday). So I'm resetting my counter and starting again with another short term goal of 7 days. I realized that the less I post, the more prone I am to not be vigilant against PMO and these temptations. It's about being active and constantly fighting the urge to PMO. The urgings were getting super strong the past couple of days, and I think not posting and kinda cruising by is what caused it to be like this. Thank you everyone for your support! I'm not discouraged, just more motivated to continue the progress that was already made. No turning back - next time will be longer than 22 days
Day 2 Today was a pretty good day! I woke up really early for work so I ended up spending a lot of the day napping haha. But I also did a lot of work outside of the office today, so it helped me stay focused. It also helped that I was working with other people and building off each other. It was nice that we were able to spend that time together because they were keeping me accountable, whether they knew it or not. Another good step in the right direction!
Day 3 Today has been pretty good. I was very busy today as well, so I haven't even had the chance to do anything related to PMO. There wasn't too much temptation today either. Sorry, really quick post because I'm super exhausted and about to keel over haha. Hopefully I can write more tomorrow.
Day 1 I forgot to post yesterday. It was both out of busy-ness but also because I actually PMO'd pretty bad yesterday. I wasn't very encouraged yesterday, but today was a new day. I felt so very encouraged after spending time with my friends and telling some of them my problem. I needed a time apart from my own mind. It was really good to be reminded of how badly I want to be rid of this addiction. It's time to move on.
