Its so hard to restart after relapsing.

Ok well, I just relapsed a few hours ago after a 136 day streak. My porn addiction is serious. And I mean to the point of having highly conditioned Femdom fetishes and anything related to that. Yes it sucks to get back into it. I'm highly demotivated, but you gotta do what you gotta do if you want to be rid of this, you know? Let me tell you; while I didn't reach the point during the 136 days that I was completely free from fetishes or anything, I did not have a desire for porn at all. It was only the past week, after I got immensely stressed out due to finals etc., that I broke down and resorted to porn and porn fantasy to cope (it actually started with fantasy). All fetishes faded and seemingly vanished during the 136 day period, with the exception of one, which I tried in real life during that period. I've started to get a few semi-boners again, and was able to achieve 80% erections again during intercourse with women I met for either one night stands or dating, whereas before I could not get hard for the life of me in real life situations. So it may or may not reach this point for you after 90 days, depending on how addicted you are, on your brain, when you started porn, etc. I wouldn't worry about the date. Give yourself 90 days of pure hard-mode reboot. No girls, no dating, no porn, no fapping. After that, try to slowely build up dating if you wish, but avoid masturbation and orgasm at all costs, and I don't think I need to even mention porn. Hope that helps you some.