Day 10 and I dont have shit in life. LITERALLY THIS CLOSE TO START DRUG DEALING

I'm 18.I don't have shit, I'm broke, no money,no job, lost all my friends, very ugly, girls don't fuck with me( don't wanna know me),I HAVE LITERALLY NO RESPECT FROM ANYONE, NO ONE FUCKING RESPECTS ME, I FUCKED UP LIFE, depressed as fuck

I'm not going to snitch or anything but people that I know my age that came my school, basically my peers took up drug dealing-And guess what?. They drive round in flashy cars, gold chains, respect and love from everyone on the streets.

As a kid all I did was look up to the other dealers.

All I need to do is meet up with my connect and start, just like that its so simple, but I don't want it to be the life I chose since it is very scary,people go mental go paranoid, people have to watch their backs.And I'm already acting like that already for no reason even though I've never ever sold a single drug in my life.

I've tried everything to get a job no one will give me one. MY family is getting sick and tired of sitting my ass at home with no
education and no job.

ITS almost as if drug dealing or nothing.I literally have the blueprint for this but I dont know what to do. I cant go tell this to a friend, my mum etc So I just felt letting it all out on here

 

From what im getting is that you NEED to feel respected by your peers, i understand that. we all do. But I want to ask is do you have respect for yourself? Trust me, because later in life(adulthood) which your at the beginning. All the "cool drug dealers" dont mean shit and wont be shit if they stay the path their on. Either dead or in jail, likely the 2nd. Its easy to envy them, because it's fast money but fast money doesnt last long.

Your 18 man, the decisions you make now affect everything in your future. When i was that age, i enrolled in college and dropped out, many times. decided that wasnt for me but i did all i could to get a job and started to make money the legit way. started at fast food, hated it. but it was something. Try looking for employment offices or services around your area, usually they have temporary spots at companies and being the holidays, there's usually alot of work, so business's need the help. Thats how i got my 1st full time job, started as a temporary worker, after 3 month probationary period, they hired me and i kept that job for 8 years. What im saying is right now you're at a crossroads. Dealing isnt it for the long run, trust me. You already started nofap, so i know there's something you wanted to change about your life for the positive. Make the right decision.

congrats on 10 days man..keep it going

 

I would strongly advise dont go for drugs. it may look cool with fancy cars and stuff but in the end it's horrible.
i read of one guy who got into drugs. he got caught by the cops and he was raped in prison.

respect from others doesnt matter. people may fear the drug dealers but those some people plan to dethrone the drug dealers. what's the use of such a fan following?

a few friends is all you need. maybe take any random job, like a blue collar job. you're 18. you have plenty time to start your career. taking up odd jobs teach more about life than university education.

 

I'm 37 years old and living that long I have seen many people come and go in all kinds of situations.

I saw those guys too when I was your age, but those guys eventually got caught and lost everything they had, the girls left them for other drug dealers, and then they wound up worse off in life because now they have a record that prevents employment because they did prison/jail time.

Drug dealing is over in America no matter who you see is momentarily doing well. This isn't the 1970s/80s. Drug dealing not only has serious consequences that make it not worth it to sell but also the U.S. Government/police have infiltrated every aspect of the drug game so you don't know who is who anymore..... Meaning your 'connect' could easily be an undercover agent or informant.

You're looking for a job with good pay you should look into overseas jobs or work in the oil industry out at sea or in remote areas.

 

To earn true respect man is a very damn hard thing to do, and usually happens not because you look for it, all those dudes bragging about they are "pretending" to be respectful, true respect is silent and deep.

Life is damn hard man, every day I see people in Mexico in the worst of the conditions but in hell when they get into the drug shit man. My family is not rich and my friends deal with a lot of crap, but you know, Im 37 and I survived thanks to the example of those who dare to be, to love, to create, to share, to express what they feel, to make music or whatsoever, to find a damn job and start every day again and again, etc.. and yes of course we had side effects, not everyone survived, we didnt have everything we wanted, we got some a couple of addictions, violence, alcohol, and this PMO shit that is not a cure for feeling empty at all!! You know what i say, lets fill this life with life!

We only have this life man what are we going to do about it??? throw it away???

I can feel your strenght but Im not sure if you believe in yourself man

I dare you to see yourself in the mirror and find the absolute beauty of your existence and not the stupid images that are selled outside

Animo chingao!!! (that means "keep strong!")

 

No one respects drugs dealers or loves them. Plus being a drug dealer is not as glamorous as you make it sound. You're constantly having to worry about the cops, other dealers, up and comers, your own source, and your friendly neighborhood junkies. All of these people would either gladly rob you or see you dead.

Being a street pharmacist is not the way to go.

 

We all want to be respected, but I think there are better ways to find it.
Just because you might have a negative perception of yourself, it doesn't mean that is true .

Getting a job is key. It gives you the money to start to make changes.
If your not happy about your looks you have options, going to the gym is a great way to improve confidence.
Improving your style is also great. Taking pride on how you present yourself sends a positive message to the world.
Travelling and or hobbies aid in making you an interesting and respected person.

Bruce lee said The key to immortality is first living a life worth remembering.
I hope you do.

 

You are very young and you have way more options than you can think of right now. You can educate yourself if you don't have money for education. I've learnt pretty much all I needed to get a job as programmer and I dont have a degree neither.

There are many paths for you, and the internet can be a great tool to acquire the knowledge so you can profit. You can learn programming as I did, or learn photography, or making music, or anything really... Now that you don't waste your time watching porn you can develop your skills and learn anything you want. As others already pointed out drug dealing is a dangerous path with false promises.

 

Please read "the master key system" bro. If you're diligent you will change your life. I promise u.