9 days, it was the best I ever did, and I ruined all of this just because I wanted to masturbate ! My head is a huge mess, and I don't want to do this anymore. 9 days... I really want to kill myself just because I don't have the strength to stop ! Why is it so hard ? If i just could cut my hands it will be awful ! Please help me P.S. (I won't kill my self, and I won't cut my hands...)
Man, the reason it's so hard is because it's something we LIKE to do. Change stinks. It's hard. Failures happen when you try to change sometimes, especially if it's something that is a huge part of your life. The key isn't to NEVER fail, but to never stop TRYING TO FIGHT. As long as you don't get the attitude of "screw it I can't fight it I might as well just do it" you CAN overcome it. You never really win, you just stop losing. It will be a forever-long battle (though it will get easier). You will always be able to go back to it, you just have to make up in your mind to NOT do it no matter how difficult it gets. Wish you the best.
