I was pretty active on this site a little bit more than one year ago...and it really helped me. I guess that the community has changed a lot since then. The reason why I "left" was the "NoFap War" I guess (I dont even remember the exact name)...there was a little argument with some users back then but I cant really remember the reason... However, I really experienced a lot since then and I would say that 2016 was one of the most amazing years in my whole life. Of course there were also a lot of disappointments and a lot of shit happened. Lets start with the biggest disappointment: I'm still addicted to PMO. I wasnt really able to overcome my addiction...it actually became much worse - I became really weird...also when I am a little bit more experienced now and handle urges differently, my longest streak in the last year wasnt longer than 17 days. 17 days. I never came further than that. I was very active on the nofap subreddit, but I needed something like a "daily review", a place when I can track my daily progress and I realized that the NoFap forums are much more suitable for that than the subreddit. I wont only write about my urges, but also a list of things which I have to do everyday and which I will "tick"! It will work this time definitely!!! I will beat this addiction, we all will!!! I couldnt even imagine all the chances I missed because I didnt have enough "balls", because I felt that my time didnt start yet. My time is now. “You spend your whole life stuck in the labyrinth, thinking about how you'll escape one day, and how awesome it will be, and imagining that future keeps you going, but you never do it. You just use the future to escape the present.” - John Green
@Awakening123 thanks! yeah I write my journal usually in a notebook, but I want to try something new and also let myself inspire by the positive energy by the people here! Day 1 So, its the first day, so actually theres nothing really special about that. Of course I'm happy that I could motivate myself again for this challange since I've done it a lot before...but today is different, because today is the first day of NoFap finally working! I havent done all of the things that I will write down in a list below, because today was more like "thinking about my current situation" and what my goals on my upcoming streak will be. I finally want to make it further than 3 weeks. Yes, for some of you guys this goal sounds really easy, but I had a really hard time passing the 2-week-mark. So this is my primary goal this time, everything else will come after that. So here It is, the list of stuff that I will rate or which I have to do every single day! If I drop one of the points or replace it with a different one then I have to give a reason for doing so...so lets start with that: Day 1 URGES: None Wake Up time: 07:00 Sleeping time: 22:30 Cold Shower: Yes How much water I drank: 2 litres Skin care: Yes Workout: No Meditation: No Unhealthy food: Yes, unfortunately Work sessions: 3 Helped other people on the platform: Yes So this is the list for the beginning. Please comment if I should add an important point which has helped you in the past! Like I said, today was not great...I had a lot to do (No, there won't be excuses in the next days lol) but my plan will start from tomorrow on! There will always be a text about my thoughts or my day or something... Good luck to all of you! See you on the "Success Stories" page soon!
Day 2 URGES: None Wake Up time: 07:00 Sleeping time: 22:00 Cold Shower: Yes How much water I drank: 3 litres Skin care: Yes Workout: Yes Meditation: Will do it right after writing this text Unhealthy food: Yes, but less than yesterday Work sessions: Unfortunately didnt get that much work done...but I will work much more focused tomorrow! Helped other people on the platform: Yes So today is the second day, so it's also nothing very spectacular...but I'm sure that the effects will be strong this time, because I'm really focused and motivated! I realized that I have pretty bad mood on days when I masturbated more...it's just the second day yet, but I was so happy throughout the whole day Tomorrow is going to be a busy day again, but I'm sure that I will stay strong! I'm sure that I will CRUSH this, but deep inside I have got doubts because of the two-weeks-mark that I never got past of...I have to think of some "special anti-relapse safety" for those nights lol
Day 0 - RELAPSE URGES: yes Wake Up time: 08:00 Sleeping time: 22:30 Cold Shower: Yes How much water I drank: 2.5 litres Skin care: Yes Workout: No Meditation: Yes Unhealthy food: Yes, not that much Work sessions: Very focused, did get really much done Helped other people on the platform: No Relapse - after day 2... I messed up. One year ago, I used to cry sometimes after I relapsed lol...but after the 100th relapse it doesn't really matter anymore. Don't get me wrong, I regret the relapse, but I realized something I used to do back when I started to quit PMO: I used to binge. And my relapse woudn't just affect my addiction to "come back" much stronger than before, I literally just said to myself: "When I already relapse, I may also mess it up completely." So I PMO'd much more than before to get over the frustration of the relapse, I overslept, stayed awake late, ate unhealthy again, skipped the gym, didn't go to the library to study, etc. until I took on the challange again after some weeks. This way of thinking is just complete nonsense, but I still did it and you know why? Because I blustered myself so much into the relapse and that everything I worked for would have been for absolutely nothing. Of course I am disappointed of myself and I start counting from day 1 again, but I don't see it as an absolute catastrophy. It's about winning and losing, that's how the world works. Some people need one attempt, others still struggle after more than one year, that's life man. I relapsed probably over a hundred times already and I can tell you one thing: It's not about relapsing, just like it's not about falling down in life. It's about just trying again, just like standing up again after you fell - or do you just stay there, lying on the floor? Wow this never made more sense to me... So, I relapsed in the morning, took a cold shower, and just sat on my desk and worked. Just got in my routine again, because I knew that I relapsed, so I could make this at least a productive day - and man, today was reeeaally productive! So, day 1 tomorrow, let's try again!
Yep this is what nofap is all about in a nutshell. Always learn from every relapse so you can avoid repeating same mistakes in future. Good luck!
Day 1 URGES: yeah, in the morning but easy to handle Wake Up time: 07:00 Sleeping time: 22:30 Cold Shower: No How much water I drank: 2.5 litres Skin care: Yes Workout: No Meditation: Yes Unhealthy food: Yes, but I really make progress with "controlling" Work sessions: Was okay, not that motivated and didnt went to the library Helped other people on the platform: No @Awakening123 thank you man, I really appreciate that you read my journal and motivate me, it really means a lot! So another day. Today was actually really weird...I didn't get strong urges though, but I started overthinking some stuff about my future, university etc. and really started getting a bit anxious about everything...I even locked myself in the bathroom to cry, because of some problems I am currently having and also upcoming exams and stuff. I wanted to PMO reeeaallyy bad man, because that is what I usually do when I feel shit. But I told myself: Not today. I won't mess it up again! So I stood up to it and brushed off the urges pretty easily! I watched some short documentaries about the human body and how addictions work and from there I came to videos about the history of the universe and how unimaginably big the world we live in actually is and I realized, that me, as a person is incredibly irrelevant and also extremely powerful and important at the same time. I mean on the one hand, we are not even a milisecond on the clock of the evolution of the universe, but at the same time, the idea of one person can ignite a huge fire. And I was about to flee from my small luxurious problems by getting back into the addiction I relapsed from just one day ago...
