30 Days Hard Mode - My Experience

Discussion in 'Rebooting - Porn Addiction Recovery' started by fapazoid30, Mar 7, 2017.

  1. fapazoid30

    fapazoid30 New Fapstronaut

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    Hello. No one in my life knows I've taken this on, and I just need a place to share my experience. I've made it 30 days without orgasm. That was my goal.

    I am 31 years old and this is the longest I've gone without masturbating since I was 13 years old. I wanted to try this out as an experiment because I am stuck in my life. I'm the older guy content to be alone and isolated. (When you're done beating off, who needs human interaction?) I haven't felt a strong hunger to make something of my life like many people do. I just started to wonder more if the PMO stuff has anything to do with my lack of motivation and aspiration.

    I don't think I experienced what I would call super powers, but I have felt this sensation of horniness that was so powerful it motivated me to take action to move my life forward. I think I experienced a beginner-level sexual transmutation. If you can't expel that energy, you gotta do something with it.

    Around day 20 I was motivated to try out Tinder and I actually have a couple matches I've been chatting with. I'm finally willing to admit that I'd much rather get laid than continue to PMO everyday. I'm hoping to practice some courage soon and approach some women again like I have in the past.

    I just got a new car, which was something I've been putting off out of sheer apathy. I'm on the verge of applying at some places for a new job. Haven't gotten up the courage to drop of the resumes just yet, but I'm right there.

    I don't think I've experienced a stronger response from women, or a deeper voice, or anything like that. I'm considering ending this experiment soon.

    Do you think I should keep going? Are there new heights to be reached that I would be cheating myself out of?

    I appreciate the community and opportunity to share my experience. Cheers :)
     
  2. Renaissance of Being

    Renaissance of Being Fapstronaut

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    I say keep going, but it's all up to you. I've just joined the NoFap community a couple days ago and have been going for 5 days now on hard mode. To see that you've made it to a month is inspiring. I'm shooting for the full 90 day reboot and since I'm practically married to my studies, I anticipate doing it on full hard mode. Regardless if you choose to keep going or not, it will be great to hear more about your future achievements. Best of luck to you my NoFap brother!
     
  3. To stop it after 30 days would be s wrong decision in all ways possible. You explained you had no need for anything in your life except right now. If you get back to masturbaing to porn say goodbye to motivation to do any of those things you want in life. The question is not if you should try doing nofap, but will you be able. People here throw statements like"I'm gonna do 90 days" or "I did one week, I'll never masturbate again" only to post days later that they repaired and repeat the cycle tens of times until they give up. This is done straight up one of the most difficult things for anyone and where you will succeed or not depends how much energy you're willing to spend on it. To achieve something great you have to fight with realy scary monsters in an extremely difficult battle for a very long time. Most people just don't have it in them. Which one are you...?
     
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  4. Renaissance of Being

    Renaissance of Being Fapstronaut

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    I totally agree with the point you're making here. If someone is going to set a goal then they need to stick to it. Talking is easy, but following through with what's said is something completely different. Maintaining accountability is key, especially if one states their goals on a public forum.
     
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  5. Btw thanks for correcting me. It was clearly auto correct at work :) these people who are bragging and boasting about the goals they will achieve kind of projecting the need of acceptance and affirmation for their actions. And it's not the right way to do it. You have to be able to be proud yourself of what you're doing. Otherwise the compliments from other people will never be enough to go long term. Peace
     
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  6. fapazoid30

    fapazoid30 New Fapstronaut

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    Good point. I'm on Day 32 now and it is NOT getting any easier. Not sure how long I will be able to make it. And I have no intention of trying to quit fapping forever. I guess I'm just wondering how far I want to TRY to go. I suppose I need to ask myself... What am I really trying to get out of this experiment? And how will I know I've attained that?
     
  7. youre right in some way. but also think no only what you'll get from nofap, but what you'll lose with PM. Even if you get very litle with nofap, the loss will still be bigger with PM.
     
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