I feel like relapsing after 124 days...

A few words for those in this thread who seem to have found Squeaky Soul's difficult day discouraging: may I suggest that you are looking at it the wrong way? This is a 16yo guy (ie basically as horny a male human being as you get!) who has been PMO free for 126 days, who had a tough stressful day and as a result felt heavy urges to relapse, and who resisted those urges and made it thru. We can all find strength and inspiration in his journey, not discouragement.

Having quit cigarettes years ago, and reading the accounts of people here who have been porn-free for quite a long time, it seems to me there are some real similarities in the addictions. I came to realise something with tobacco, after my one and only relapse a few months after stopping. I realised that the urge to have a cigarette was as powerful, when it arose, as when I was smoking all the time. What changed was the frequency of the urges. In the first few days after quitting, I wanted a smoke many, many times a day and had to fight it over and over again. By three weeks in, those urges were down to few times a day, and after three months I might go a whole day or two without wanting a cigarette at all.

Now, many years later, I will get the urge for a smoke only once or twice a year- but when that urge comes, it's just as powerful as when I was on twenty a day. And I have to resist it with the same effort of will as way back then. Complacency and saying "just one will be ok, I'm not a tobacco addict anymore" is not an option. I know from my relapse that if I have just one cigarette, I will be smoking full time again in a week. I have also learned there are certain things that will trigger the urge for a smoke; social situations with old friends who still smoke(thankfully most have quit by now but there a still a few), settings where I used to particularly enjoy a cigarette(round a campfire or a beach bonfire or sitting round drinking with friends), or when I am in a very stressful situation. I know now to be extra vigilant at these times.

However, resisting the urge to smoke a few times a year is pretty easy, really. This idea you have IGY, that every day of your life will be a hellish battle is not right. Squeaky Soul had his moment of intense urges, but that has passed already. Most days are not like that for him. And he resisted, and now he carries on(awesome effort Soul Squeaker, you're an inspiration), even stronger for having been thru that experience. Each day gets a little bit easier, with some bumps along the way. Accepting that you are an addict does not mean that you are in for a life time of constant battling, it just means you acknowledge your problem and act accordingly. Don't be discouraged brother, stick with it. It will get better and better.