The Journey to a better life

The road to Self-Mastery

So it begins.. the Journey to relinquish old habits & addictions & no longer hide away fear but instead face the cruel & scary world we live in & make it better than when I left it..

Let me introduce myself, I'm James Otmar. I'm 24 years old, I am a young, fit, good looking, multi-talened, intelligent & naturally ambitious & driven..
However...something is missing & something seems to hold me back & keeping these natural qualities to grow into fruition.

It seems, no matter how naturally gifted you are, or how well you plan things out... you are going to be beaten down by life, one way or another. This seems normal but why does it feel self-inflicted? Why does it feel like I have complete self control one moment & then none at all? Why is it that when things get hard, I start to feel urges for complete escapism?

I feel like two different people, one who Is successfull in all areas of his life & the next moment I am being bullied by my own thoughts after resisting for a couple of weeks, days, hours.. I eventually succumb to the urges to escape, by any means neccessary.. & now the downward vicious cycle begins.

One day I wake up & realize I have lost control of my life & soon become sickened with myself & try to regain control. But the damage is done. I am still single, still under-acheiving & unable to commit to anything long term. What the fuck is going on?

I stumble upon a theory that stipulates porn, maturbation, orgasim play a vital role in the downfall of many other men, a year later I'm still trying to quit PMO.

I remember when I was 5 weeks in, I felt like finally I had it under control & then I got a girlfriend. Things were great for a time, but shortly after she broke up with me & It turned my world upside down & the downward spiral began once again.. but halfway through the reboot, the pain was unbearable & the lack of support brought me to PMO once again.

Ask yourself, how much can you take before you seek help & in what form are you recieving it?

4 months later, I've moved state to start a fresh & today I must swallow my pride & ask for help, in the form of Nofap. Today will be the first day of many where I decide never to PMO again.
There is a young boy hiding from the life he has found himself living & he will no longer be in chains & held down in fear. I am this boy & he is me, & i'm sure you as the reader can relate to this.

TODAY I pledge to stop fapping for 160 days & I will be making a Nofap video series documenting my Nofap journey on youtube to back this up. Any support & all support is welcome, because without it, It may not be possible.

Thanks for reading!