Massive depressive mood out of no where!

I lost my really long streak 6 days ago, it was either 50 or 90 days long, depending on the view.

The last week I felt awesome and superb, I had no mood changes and I was confident and secure of myself.

Yesterday I felt really energized and motivated, full with joy and life. I had full confidence in myself, and I was kind of looking forward for the next day.

Today, I could not wake up. I woke up at close to 8AM, but stayed in my bed until 9.30, I had no strength no stand up, never had that, especially on a weekend. Not that I can recall. After I stood up, I felt horrible. Without any strength, and without any motivation. I forced myself through a cold shower, and it helped only temporary.

I also remembered all the scenarios with girls I either blow or I did not use to talk to them. I really got angry about that, and sad about my failure.

At around 3PM I decided to visit the gym (first time the 2nd day in a row), and I felt horrible and without strength in the gym. I did not want to exercise properly, but I stood firm and ignored all of the attractive girls. Then, one girl on my side start stretching, but still I ignored it. So many triggers.

I could not do a proper cardio session, I left after 9 minutes. The last 2 times I did it for +30 minutes each with avg. 8-11 kp/h.

Also, before I left I googled how to do proper squats. Videos and articles with female bodybuilders come up, and I felt insanely triggered. Left to gym after that.

When I came home, I looked up how to lose body fat effective, and then another article with a pic. of a female bodybuilder came up, of course half-naked as always. I felt an insane tension within myself to release, but closed the page instantly, after some seconds.

In the evening, I got some insane urges. I lost precum without any material, just those urges to PMO made me lose precum and made me insanely horny, I never got that horny in a urge before. I resisted though, but currently I still feel a tension within myself. I am really surprised that I experienced such a heavy mood shift. Surprisingly, my friend felt the same way today, like I did.

I did not relapse, but today I lost all confidence and strength. I questioned NoFap, I questioned life, and I questioned myself and my future. I questioned if I will be ever able to approach a girl. I just questioned everything.

Does anybody know how such a extreme shift of mood can happen? The last week I felt superb. I had NO URGES at all in the last 6 days, despite the fact that I relapsed 6 days ago.

Anyways, I hope after you read this you realize how hard it can be. Expect even harder scenarios, and even those which seem unexplainable to you.