Straight guy addicted to gay porn

Well you've definitely come to the right place. I've gone through the same stuff you have to a certain extent, but I am secure in myself that I know I'm not actually attracted to men. What I do know firsthand is that abstaining from porn has made those extreme tastes fade away. It's all about breaking away from porn and focusing on what's in front of you. And once you make that journey, you'll like what you see.

 

Even I've been addicted to gay porn. And have acted out a few times cause i thought it'd be as much as fun as the guys in the gay porn clips have. not watching porn helps, and reduces the intensity of urges.

 

In zen we have a saying...

1. A Cup of Tea


Nan-in, a Japanese master during the Meiji era (1868-1912), received a university professor who came to inquire about Zen.

Nan-in served tea. He poured his visitor's cup full, and then kept on pouring.

The professor watched the overflow until he no longer could restrain himself. "It is overfull. No more will go in!"

"Like this cup," Nan-in said, "you are full of your own opinions and speculations. How can I show you Zen unless you first empty your cup?"

 

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Hi Nomore, I'm in a very similar situation. I viewed gay porn to mastubate on. I had one male partner many years ago. I'm marriage now but I often feel lonely. I don't think I would act out my fantasies but I need to stop before I do. If you want to be accountability partners we can.

 

Nomorefaptime I too have found myself down this road. I started watching porn at 13 years old and found my "tastes" changing and while i would still masturbate and enjoy straight porn I found myself more and more into gay porn, transwoman..etc. It lead me to fishing and sexting on craigslist, joining and putting ads on dating websites and even making a hidden gmail account that i kept from my wife so that i could do all of this and use sites like Grindr. This became very confusing for me since i love my wife and am sexually attracted to her but I felt as if something was missing and began to wonder if I were bisexual or gay. For me it comes down to this I know i have been attracted to women since as far back as i can remember (never had those "girls have cooties" phase) but I didn't start thinking about the act of gay sex (not men in general) until after I was well into porn watching so for me that helps clarify things for me. I know i could never have a relationship or love interest with a man but I am in love and married to a woman so it is becoming clear to me that this confusion could have only come from the heavy porn watching habit. I am glad to see other members of the community share their experiences with this since I believed I was the only one and must have "had something wrong with me", not to say being gay is wrong it's just not who i really am. So to anyone else out there you are not alone there are others in similar situations. I am also thankful that I have a wife that is helping me overcome this addiction and recover myself. I will now focus my energies into fixing my marriage and loving my children.

Stay strong everyone, this too can be overcome!

 

Oh man, you sure don't sound like a straight guy to me. Not judging you, but you just don't sound like a straight guy.

 

100% agree. @Nomorefaptime, I think you are gay or bisexual. Accept yourself bro.

 

Well if that's what your heart wants, then perhaps you should find a boyfriend in the future.

 

I have never fancied guys and only ever been with women but found myself enjoying certain kinds of gay porn...guys being pounded hard or sucking big cocks etc.....after a few years I was starting to look into gay swinging sites and started chatting to guys.....within 3 months I sucked my first cock but continued to date women and still didn't see men attractive in any way....3 years on I still love and date women but I can't stop the urge to be a slutty cock sucker and continue to meet guys to perform oral sex on them...I've now been told numerous times that I give an amazing blow job but I find it weird as I just don't fancy guys in the slightest...just love that naughty feeling it gives me whilst doing it....

The latest was 30 mins ago but then I get back to chatting to a women I fancy and want to take out on a dating site

I don't get it but what you gonna do

 

I'm not judging, but it sounds to me like you're bisexual but you're suppressing that side of you.

I encourage you to try and come to terms with this so that you may accept yourself and your sexuality.

 

The only way to know is to start your reboot.

 

@Nomorefaptime Check out my post HOCD and regret. Read my story and all my post. Me discovering it was my HOCD the whole time is at the bottom. Any of you guys suffering from HOCD can message me and NO JUST BECAUSE YOU HAD A HOMOSEXUAL EXPERIENCE DOES NOT MAKE YOU GAY OR BI

 

Thanks for the replies there all very helpful,

I do accept that I maybe bi and don't have a real issue with that at all.....but it seems only to be a sexual thing and only potent when I drink alcohol or more so when I dabble in cocaine use...I have a friend who experiences exactly the same and spoke to many others on websites...are we all suppressing our true feelings or is it some kind of chemical thing?

I have noticed in times of stress I have wanted to watch more one sided types of porn where one is treated harshly and then searched for someone who wants to treat someone in this way,I've then enjoyed being used in that way!

So I'm thinking it's more psychological in the state of mind I'm in possibly!??

But I will look through your links and take your advise and see how this helps

 

I believe you are not gay but have HOCD. I have suffered the case of HOCD. It does not mean you are gay.

 

I too got addicted to gay porn. Every time I used meth id get completely numb and nevt thing you know I'm watching bareback cumshot gayporn.

 

Nothing wrong with it, but... Do you find out that you love cock after years of watching porn or it was from beginning?

My situation is a little bit similar to your. I saw anal sex in VHS and magazines then i tried anal masturbation and i liked it (first time it was terrible thing, but second expirience was amazing). I did it for 2-3 years then i made pause for couple years then i did it again and this time i wanted real cock. I was fitness freak, i had six pack and there was not big problem to met some guy on date site. I met him couple days ago and our sex was WOW expirience. He liked me bcs he could do with me everything what he love in sex (he was a little bit into SM so he always want to fuck me hard as he want, slap my ass with belt and cum always in my mouth like in gay porn).

I am not attracked to men, everything i want is dick and every time when i relapsed it was because i did anal masturbation and there was anal orgasm (damn, i miss this more than normal orgasm, it's great feeling).

 

man i'd like to talk to you about this

 

This is my experience down to a tee and ever since I've started my reboot the urges have com back and they are stronger than before. And the same I'm not sexually attracted to men but have for a long time wanted to experience a cock, but I believe that comes from watching porn for half my life.