got a bj from a guy

That is self harm bro. That can possibly even traumatize you. How bad are you feeling?

 

Hey man, after years of addiction to transgendered person/sissy porn a few weeks ago I received a bj from a crossdresser. Rhe post I made is in my 90 day journal thread. Recognize that it is due to porn ruining your mind and my theory is that it is also due to not being comfortable with our own masculinity and thus trying to emasculate an other man. You will get through this bro and you don't have to ever tell anyone, take this secret to your grave and don't beat yourself up.

 

Dont hesitate to send me a message if you have something you want to cry about. And if you start feeling really bad, find a priest/psychologist or something.

 

sometimes in life we need to contrast things, to compare things, don't beat your self up, a lot of people try that stuff out and get upset over it. your gonna be fine. drop the upset and resentment, just watch the thoughts in your head. the negative emotions will go away if you do, first you have to get the thoughts out of your head about it. just keep trying to feel really good about your self, you have to think good thoughts about your self.

 

Well - as a bisexual man I have no problem with gay sex. I am very selective when making a date with a guy. I have learned in this forum that porn addiction may result into HOCD and that those who feel straight in 99 % are in fact straight. So the bj which happened just was an insignifant part of your learning process. Sometimes we have to experience what we definetely don't want to be open for what we really want. Time goes by and maybe you will forget the whole story.

 

I have no idea. I first had to explore what HOCD means. So I found this website:
http://www.brainphysics.com/articles/ocd/hocd
http://www.brainphysics.com/articles/ocd/homosexual-anxiety-and-ocd-hocd

Maybe it helps you a little bit. My feeling is you are straight and this porn addiction has manipulated some of your brain cells. I am sure getting rid of this addiction will help a lot to identify yourself as a man who wants sex with women only.

 

I don't know. Maybe in 2 months or 3 months or 4 months.

Then your situation is easier than mine. I am always wondering if am more attracted by men or by women.

 

Not just bad... stupid! It was porn that caused this problem in the first case! Porn is not the solution to anything Richard.

 

Abstinence is the key. It takes time, which is frustrating, but the brain will reboot to factory settings given enough time.

 

I don't think you will ever forget about it but don't let it consume you leading to self hate and self harm. and watching porn ain't gonna make you forget anything! the second you bust a nut your going to come back to reality and realize again what happened.