I was dating my ex for 3 years and she is such a high sexual human and I'm not, well at least not for now cause of this addiction. Anyways, every time we had sex it was terrible. When I thrusted her I felt nothing and my mind was blank. Honestly porn was running thru my head and she knew that. I would literally stop and throw in the towel and she hated that sooo much. We truly loved each other and I believe that's why we ended it. I mean sex just sucked ass man. I never wanted to have sex cause it was gonna be the same shit everytime. Thrust, cum, and dip out. I never made her orgasm she had to do it herself. Perfect body and face and everything. Who wouldn't bang her brains out?? I couldn't, I wasn't able to and I kick myself for that everyday. We probably couldve stayed together. So that's my reason for nofap. Improve my sexual health so I can properly love a woman correctly.
I dont have a gf because of Social anxiety .but somehow i feel the same against women. i dont remember the last time had a boner when i see attractive woman in public. they just dont attract me these are negative effects of pmo.For few days i've started nofap i can feel small attraction against women.So you are not alone here keep it up and welcome.
She Shortly after we broke up she went on and fucked another guy. I know she won't take me back for sure. We are absolutely done and that's what hurts the most. I just want to prove to her that I can love her genuinely without porn. But idk if that will ever happen again.
It must be tough to deal with a breakup and at the same time deal with porn addiction. But I don't know if there was a chance that you could have both at the same time. I'm sure porn lead you to bad sex, and bad sex lead you to porn. As an outsider to this whole situation, I would think that the next step is to focus on fixing your porn addiction and getting here is a great first step. Read other journals, find out how people are dealing with this. And specially make an effort to improve yourself, set yourself small goals, take it one day at a time. Imagine who would you like to become and try to get there. It must be frustrating to think that you 'lost' this girl because of the bad sex. Maybe it was that, and maybe it was a sum of other things too. But I think this is a great opportunity for growth and a wake up call telling you needed to change some things in order to have a good relationship. As @Duke of Gine said, PMO changes how you love another person and what you expect from your partner. I don't know if by having a partner that is physically perfect will ensure you a good relationship. There is much more than that in every couple. Not being able to fuck her was something it of your control, and by recovering you can get the handles on that situation again. Welcome to NoFap, I'm sure you'll find a way to get back on track.
Thanks! My buddies tell me to better myself now while I can. I'm not looking for a relationship at all. Gotta focus on myself and ridding this drug and getting into a better relationship in the future!
My buddies give me hell for that same reason. They thought I was gay cause pmo made me not even looks at a fine ass chick. It was just "meh."
