Incessant urges to crossdress, nofap for 2 months

You are absolutely not alone in this, I've gone almost a solid week without masturbating to traps, or as embarrassing as it is, having the desire to dress like a girl for personal amusement (tall and muscular don't add up to a hot girl). I think its awesome that you are focusing on other things, like your business for example, and congrats on going this long. Its mainly a taboo thats having people like you and I even get turned on by it. You ever need someone to talk to, just message me, stay strong my man.

 

I would try to figure out the root cause of this.
I don't have a problem cross dressing but, I do have a 'thing' for yoga pants material and started m'ing to that material and sometimes dressing up in it (guys workoutstuff is often the same material)

My personal theory is I am 'being my own girlfriend' or maybe its some way of connecting with women that you cant/aren't doing in the real world?

There are some cases here of people with similar problems who have overcome them and/or the desire went away after a reboot.

For some it took 90, some 180 days... also beware of getting a dopamine hit by edging with it - that can make the reset longer..

Is there an action or behavior you can replace it with when you feel the urge?

 

hard to say. On the yourbrainonporn.com site there are some people who say their fetishes went away after a long PMO break - it's really a matter of starving the pleasure pathway of neurons.. people attach sexuality to all sorts of things - usually there's some kind of root cause

 

This is exactly what I rooted out the cause to be, because of my 10 month isolation, I've had 0 contact with any women, so when I found some female underwear and a bra, I was like "Shit, why dont I just comfort myself and make it fun?" ended up depressing me and making me feel absolutely miserable. The PMO overtime should help fix that, it helped a lot for me.

 

There just is something sexy about women's pants , bras, panty hose - it could be as simply as the smooth things feel good
-Bill
Probably more guys feel this then they let on

 

I've done this off and on throughout a lot of my life. I am very attracted to women in heels, so naturally I bought myself several pair, and dresses and all that crap. I have a runners build, so when I wear this stuff, I do look kind of hot, though naturally nothing close to an actual beautiful woman. Even went as far as going to a makeover service where I was made pretty passable, then put the pictures on a dating site and was getting hit on by all kinds of guys. Thankfully the fantasy never went that far, but it was close. Wound up experimenting with other crossdressers and even a trans girl, but luckily never wound up with a guy. I felt it was an escape from my boring guy life, but I like being a guy and love women. It also didn't help that one of the crossdressers that I dressed and fooled around with was constantly telling me that I need to transition to a woman as it's my destiny(he/she eventually transitioned) and I would argue and say that I don't think we're alike in that sense. I don't need to escape from who I am, I need to make my life better and more fulfilling because I'm pretty awesome as guy and that's what God intended me to be!

 

I don't want to crossdress myself but my favorite porn was crossdresser, transwoman and most especially trap. I really think for me it was the taboo of it. I didn't start out liking it. In fact I found it nasty at first. But I exhausted myself with other fetish porn and ended up there. I really think it also has something to do with wanting to shame or debase myself.

 

i have read other users saying that isolation is a trigger

 

It truly is, and only masturbating to regular porn for a very long time, and having no one to talk to can make you dig into weird shit. Luckily it didn't get too far.