I need some help. I have a lot of guilt.

I know that feeling of guilt, too much guilt. But nothing is there to be guilty on, you didnt do anything intentionally. You know, the keyword INTENTIONALLY plays a key role in NoFap. Have you watched porn Intentionally, NO. Have you relapsed intentionally, NO. Then why feeling guilty. Focus on other good things. Yes, there are triggers all way around, but we just have to say NO. We will have to adapt to this triggerous environment. I suggest you to stay away from technologies for few days and just use it to come to NoFap. Here you can get help and you can give help so thats the point. Workout daily. Lift some weights, let it be a 5 pounds dumbell just lift them. You will see an increase in confidence

 

I feel sorry for you kid. It sounds as though you may have OCD. You should do an online test for it.

 

I think you are taking this guilt thing a little too far there is no need to beat yourself up over something so insignificant. So what if you saw a trigger you did not fapp off over anything as a result of experiencing it did you? That’s progress just another step in the right direction. The old you would have fapped off the new you just ignored it.

Just a few minutes ago I unintentionally saw a possible trigger picture online. It did not faze me one bit because I’m above it all I’m far too focused to go back to those dark days of fapping. Not when I know that I have the drive and energy to be a success.

Try to see things in a positive light all this negativity is not good for you.

 

Thats was I about to suggest to you. I do not really know much about why you started, but for me it was to live a healthy sex life and ofc because of the benefits. You sounds like someone who were in monk mode way too seriously. I truly do not want to hurt you, because I dont know what your goal is, but in life there always be P in something. Our everyday life is full of sexuality and we need to deal with it.

On the other hand I also think that this kind of porn can also give you a healthy sexual desire, it shouldnt be eliminated at all only if you want to go for celibacy. I am not saying that P is good, but in my opinion we shouldnt lose all of our sexual desires and the attraction to women because we avoid sexuality in every ways of life.

It might sounds weird, but I think if you would find love that would help. It would really show to you how is the real passion and the energy of love works in a healthy way. :- )

 

Sounds like you are bringing this shit way too far. Not a healthy state of mind to put yourself in. Maybe you would benefit from "stopping" your reboot. Not saying that you should fap or watch porn by intentionally seeking it out. But if random porn scene comes up in a movie don't look away. Stare at it and enjoy it while it's there. And then when it's gone forget about it. Because now it sounds to me that staying away from porn altogether might be more unhealthy for you than watching some porn, if it naturally comes up in a situation by itself. You can't avoid this stuff all your life. There will be triggers eventually one way or other. So maybe it's time to learn to get comfortable with that stuff. Try mindfulness mediation. Works like magic with these kinds of things if you stick with it for few months. There's a link in my description about it, check it out

 

I hope you read this asap.
I think you may benefit from doing some mindfulness meditation (I use the calm app (membership tho) - there is a free version to try). Whilst meditating you learn to notice things but not be swept away by them. This way of thinking and being I believe will help you to "calm" down in a sense. I think you are bing "over" attentive which isn't a very bad thing. It is good and I must commend you for it because it shows true strength. But you need to recognise that this world is full of triggers. You can see them but do not allow yourself to be swept away. Truly mindfulness will help you just as it has helped me. It will help you to better understand your emotions and honestly you will feel so much better. Please do try mindfullness. You may be able to google more about it and find other means of doing it. Let me know how it goes.

And congrats on going so far on this journey


Edit: Just realised shugi shugi recommended mindfulness