I've been on this boat for almost two years. Now I'm on my longest streak (26 days) but I'm really still waiting for any improvements/superpowers. I know that maybe it's too early and I'll start see something on day 60 or more...but except from 1st week (where i felt like God) now I feel kind of shit. I still can't feel "safe" around men because I look at them (lot of muscles) and then I look at me...so I still feel beta. I have more courage towards women and eye looking but I'm still cursing them. I talk to God but I can't hear/understand his answers: when I pray to him I hear no answer, no God warmth and I'm really struggling in finding my life purpose. I'm not lucky as a lot of people who have ONE CLEAR BIG INTEREST and make it as their dream job. I have a lot of intrests and things that I wanna do: I'm 25 years old and I like military life, archaeology, space and astronomy but right now I'm working inside a videogame studio (even if it's funny to work there I don't know if it's my life purpose). I want to be a warrior of light, I feel irresistible attraction for Russia (I've felt the same attraction to Japan but maybe it was just for hentai...) and I wanna stop bothering about women that have stolen so many power from me in the years and I wanna find my true love (right now I'm engaged with a very nice and sweet girl who is supporting me on nofap but I think I do not love her, because the woman of my dream is completely different. My sex life is improving, I just have sex with her, but after orgasm with her I feel compeltely low and drained for the next days, as I relapsed normally...I really have to become monk and consider a celibacy life??? I'm really lost and I dont know what to do. I'm also NOT attracting money at all and consequently I don't have money to pay gym or krav maga lesson or language master in Russia. I am paid in this internship in videogame company but very few euros. Please consider ALL aspects of my post before answering, my friends. Thank you, cheers from Italy
you feel know shity but after these time it will be better and sry but 26 is not engouh 90 days should be the minimum. keep goin bro we are all in the same boat i know its hard but its worth. never give up i you relapse start again its a part of the reboot. i relapse after 80+ 130+ 200+ days but still goin up.
Yes, but not for life! How about doing so for the rest of this year? Six months, no dwelling on sexual fantasies; no touching your genitals (except to piss and wash); no edging; no masturbation; no porn or porn substitutes; no sexual acts or stimulation with someone else; and no orgasm. You will feel significant changes as you move into 2018 - Monk Mode Liam!
But I was told that you should have sex with your girlfriend to help you rewire to real sex, instead of virtual sex. But I feel shit even after sex with her...
Yeah, it is because you are doing it too early in the process. It is better to do without for the first two or three months.
