Long post, want to reboot, need help controlling urges.

Hello everyone, I'm a 19 year old male living with my girlfriend of 2 years. I want to stop masturbating as well as watching P, my only release of O should be through my gf, but there are times she isn't in the mood because of her job (she's a CNA so she has long hours and kinda stressful job). And whenever she isn't feeling up to par I would just sneak into the bathroom and PMO, I want that to stop. I've tried joining this forum about 2 years ago and the longest I've ever gone was 1 week without PMO. I know my libido is really high, I used to PMO almost 15-20 times a day every single day. I've significantly reduced it to once or twice a day, and soon I want to just forget I even have a libido at all. I have told my girlfriend about this forum and what I want to do and she is 100% on my side helping me through this, but the hardest times are when I'm off of work or when she's not around to help control my urges. She'll usually try to take my mind off of stimulation and help me get back on track. I don't find it fair that I go look at other women and P when she's not around so I want to stop it all together and focus on the little things with my girlfriend (her hair, eyes, nails, etc), we have a very healthy relationship and I don't want to destroy it with PMO so I'm looking to you all for help with controlling urges, anything is appreciated as always and take care. Sorry for the long post, just felt the need to vent.

 

If you're here to make fun of people then I don't see why you're even on this forum.

 

I've watched the videos and read the articles about what porn does to your brain, I know what's wrong and I just need help controlling urges. Sometimes I'll go for a run but in Texas it gets super hot especially since I'm in the south portion of Texas. I usually try to indulge in my music and song writing, listen to my old recordings with my old band and see how I can improve my voice, but sometimes I find myself fantasizing for hours at night while my girlfriend is asleep. Those are the hardest of times.

 

Not everyone is the same, which is why I stated that I have a very high libido if you didn't read that part, but thanks for the non helpful comment, I see you're doing much better than me.

 

Yes because everybody is able to understand sarcasm through a messaging system

 

I'm gonna be honest, most people don't. I don't know what your deal is but could you please leave me alone, I don't need this negativity around me.