NoFap 105 days

Hi,

After 105 days of nofap I can say that I am really happy with the decision to stop watching porn and masturbating. I hope that I will last in my decision forever even when I am very lonely person and have no possibility for regular sex life. But I hope that one day it will change and as a healty non porn addicted guy I find woman who would like to be not only my sex but also what is more important life partner.

CHANGES: As the biggest introvert in the world I am trying every day to talk to people met on the street, approaching to women and just try to talk about everything.

I am trying to change my career path and start my career in project management therefore I am reading a lot, taking courses and looking for a job in that area.

And I am trying to solve all my life problems which is not easy but now I have power to do this.

The only thing I am very worried about is hudge flatline which last and last.

 

Thanks

 

Thanks

 

Honestly, I do not have cravings for porn or fapping anymore, but I think that I started to have natural cravings for sexual activity. As I mentioned before this is the reason the nofap is so challenging for me as lonely introverted person and it is great success for me that I lasted for so long. Nevertheless I am still afraid of fapping due to loneliness. Few Days ago I was frightened when during the night I had a dream in which I fapped. I walked up after the dream being scared that I really fapped because the dream seemed to be so realistic. Fortunately, it was only a bad dream. Therefore, as you can see this is long lasting battle with no ending yet.

 

I would rather say that I am still growing. In my opinion full growth will be when I become someone`s responsible partner or husband. Will that ever take place- I have no idea. Therefore, there is always a danger that I will never become fully grown man the kind I would like to be.

I had wet dream maybe two or three times but I do not deal with them. I think that when I do not masturbate and have no sex my body is trying to get rid of excess of the seemen. That is why I have to accept it how it is.