Hi, After 105 days of nofap I can say that I am really happy with the decision to stop watching porn and masturbating. I hope that I will last in my decision forever even when I am very lonely person and have no possibility for regular sex life. But I hope that one day it will change and as a healty non porn addicted guy I find woman who would like to be not only my sex but also what is more important life partner. CHANGES: As the biggest introvert in the world I am trying every day to talk to people met on the street, approaching to women and just try to talk about everything. I am trying to change my career path and start my career in project management therefore I am reading a lot, taking courses and looking for a job in that area. And I am trying to solve all my life problems which is not easy but now I have power to do this. The only thing I am very worried about is hudge flatline which last and last.
Are you still having porn cravings? Is it still a continuous battle? Or do you feel like you've 'overcome' the cravings?
Carvings are still there but now it's easy to avoid as process made us strong enough to fight. So this is ongoing fight but day by day you just become stronger than yesterday that's why this journey is so important in our life. Make it worth.
Honestly, I do not have cravings for porn or fapping anymore, but I think that I started to have natural cravings for sexual activity. As I mentioned before this is the reason the nofap is so challenging for me as lonely introverted person and it is great success for me that I lasted for so long. Nevertheless I am still afraid of fapping due to loneliness. Few Days ago I was frightened when during the night I had a dream in which I fapped. I walked up after the dream being scared that I really fapped because the dream seemed to be so realistic. Fortunately, it was only a bad dream. Therefore, as you can see this is long lasting battle with no ending yet.
would you say , you have grown from being a sissy boy to a grown man in this 105 days ? And also how do you deal with wet dreams ,if you ever have them ?
I would rather say that I am still growing. In my opinion full growth will be when I become someone`s responsible partner or husband. Will that ever take place- I have no idea. Therefore, there is always a danger that I will never become fully grown man the kind I would like to be. I had wet dream maybe two or three times but I do not deal with them. I think that when I do not masturbate and have no sex my body is trying to get rid of excess of the seemen. That is why I have to accept it how it is.