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tbh, I never thought I'd ever be happy like this...it's still rocking my world. It's not vapourising into thin air within an ephemeral moment. Like, this could be here to stay? Wow.
It's a lot of different things, some of it really really sad stuff which is a little confusing...'cuz you know, how are these things once filled with sorrow now bringing me joy?
I cry and smile all at once.
And you say you are happy that I am happy. That you know a bit of my story and you say that, ehhh...what a beautiful life... :)
Oh! On pondering your question. What I'm experiencing could be from the beatitudes, "Blessed are the pure in heart, for they shall see God"
Like you said about seeing happiness on your profile post, it could be that as I've dealt with my heart issues I can now see these things which I just couldn't before.
I got a little box of 4 from the local dépanneur (French: corner store), along with a dozen eggs and some bread.
I've got one left...I'll save it for tomorrow as a part of the ceremony of departure. I will leave the cabin with a mouthful of buttery muffin and a thought of Newie and a prayer to God.
I'll even cram a smile in there too, even if it comes at the cost of crumbs falling on the ground :D
So you're leaving the cabin for good? Do you really have to? I don't mean to be over step my boundaries you don't have to answer but where are you going?
Yeah...I gotta leave. It's the property of the 'family' & thus my stay here is barely tolerated. For real, I'm being spied upon here. Lies are told about me to the neighbours, they watch me as a result and report my activities back to the 'family'.
So, I'll be quite happy to leave that behind me n_n
The further I can get away from that kind of insanity and manipulation, the better.
As to where I am going...I'm still praying about that.
I may stay loosely local until I can effect repairs on my car and build a trailer to bring my equipment with me (I'm a licensed automotive tech by trade with my own mobile mechanic business). If everything else fails, I can live in my car while fixing cars as I go.
But I hope to do much more with my life than that ^_^
I'll keep my eyes open Newie, I trust Him with my everything. I'm so excited to see what this is going to turn into. And hey, we're friends, so ask me anything you like, k? I'm an open book. I mean, one day, I'll likely be writing about all this stuff to publish it anyways sooo...you're just giving me a head start on the material! :D
You know something Tiger-bro? I used to think that everything I've been through would only matter if I reached greatness. But now...ehh...I don't care so much. If nothing else happens, I'll just be happy knowing I had some real friends along the way.
And friends who believe in me?? Man, that's a treasure.
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