Comments on Profile Post by ImStrongAK

Alright, I spent the last 3 hours before relapsing in just thinking whether I should relapse or not. My body was shaking & vibrating & sweating uncontrollably in my Air-conditioned room. My instincts were right. I knew, my mind would definitely fuck me up! All the progress that I made in the last 38 days lost within a "solitary" day.

I don't feel glad at all. It was intentional and I deserve to suffer yet AGAIN.
I did remember all the suffering that I had to bear while reaching 38 days but.. I couldn't fight anymore.

I seem to be emotionally attached with my progress and I guess this is the reason I'm saddened as hell. Remember guys, it's NEVER worth it. Learnt the hard way, today.

You’re doing awesome, my dude. You are probably being too hard on yourself. For some that is dangerous because it leads to binging. If you stop the bleeding now you should be ok. I’m right here with ya, man. Let’s get right back up and punch this thing right in the nose!

To start is awesome , really ! But after everything there is a sense of something missing . We shot our bullet and our gun is empty . We must wait again to reload . The worst is the increase of the urges ! We must tough it out . The sooner , the better

Remember you are not defined by your relapses but by your decision to remain in RECOVERY despite them.