I reached 150 days clean yesterday. I don’t even think about watching P anymore. Social media would’ve been something that threw me off, but I remained solid throughout and blocked anything that would be detrimental to my success. I’m not really happy, nor am I really sad. I’m just fine, I guess. I remember writing a post about my ex-girlfriend and about how I really couldn’t stand being away from her. Someone commented (I’m sorry I don’t remember their name) that based on the circumstances we were in, she did what she had to do to protect herself. I couldn’t argue with that because it was the truth. With that in mind, I made the decision to step away. No more friends with benefits or anything. I’ve been really set on letting nature run its course. No more trying to force anything, but rather just letting things be. It’s always said that everything happens for a reason. In the time that myself and my ex-girlfriend had a period of not talking to each other, I was reacquainted with a girl that I had a huge crush on in 8th grade (I’ll explain that whole thing another time). I’m glad I’ve been able to discipline myself to come this far in my journey. anyone who is struggling with their own journey, understand that Rome was not built in a day. All good things come with time. As Denzel Washington said “get knocked down 7 times and get up 8.” Hopefully, some of you guys will understand. As for me, 180 days is right around the corner. And truth be told, I’m excited.