Hi everyone, This is the first time I'm posting here even though I've been visiting now and then. So, Background about me (before nofap) : -Discover porn at ~11-12 -Started viewing erotic pictures at the age of 14 and soon turning into videos -Been doing one fap a day or every another day -Average porn watching session is above 1 hour (I know) -Genre of them have been shifting to the more hardcore ones throughout years -After highschool, I was doing 2-3 faps a day with each session lasting at least 45 minutes and only did once a day if fatigue hit -Gets a hard on easily, anyplace and anywhr -Can get really horny when girls sit near me and stuff (was uneasy to act normal) -Started feeling problem with a long erection unless a hardcore was being viewed -Normal porn just aint doing anything for me -No confidence talking to girls, strangers and was just socially anxious and awkward. -Was often complimented by girls for being cute and stuff but I was pussy so -Never had any physical contacts with girls At 21, - Discovered Nofap a little over one year ago. - Tried it just to see if it works and to get my long lasting erection back - Started with reducing the frequency to one fap a week by watching non-sexual but tantalizing videos (kissing random girls etc) - This really WORKED. My erection was good even the video showed no skin and was just normal kissing - Didnt really feel any boost in confidence but its a lot better than what I used to be - After this, had no idea how but I somehow started abstaining from wanking at all - Wasn't keeping count but have been doing nofap for 2 weeks+ then relapsed then again for quite a few months. - Figured I could go longer and really commit to it. - Started with one month journey and then relapsed. - Felt really good in that one month. Confidence and all you name it. - Talking to girls is no longer a problem at ALL - Decided to start a real journey - After about one month, made out for the first time with this girl who my friend brought to the bar and surely soon enough I turned it into a FWB relationship (Just FYI I've every even touched a girl's hand before this and let alone kissing) - Had no problem achieving what I wanted to and expressing myself - Because of the FWB relationship, easily achieved nofap for 3 months (summer break) - At the same time, hung out with my highschool crush (that I really liked) and I told her I liked her without problem and she said she actually liked me a lot too but she's flying back to another country for school so thats it. - After school starts, I got back into my life and FWB relationship cut off (long distance) - Went back to casual porn and masturbation now and then - Was still confident and all - Fell in love with a coursemate of mine and stopped wanking without me even realizing it. - Have been abstaining for like 160 days during the pursue of the girl - During this period, I was NOT HONRY at all time, truly loved the girl and all I thought about was having a future with her. Never was I once fantasize about anything with her. - After months of pursue, got rejected horribly but I confessed and all without problem (was proud of myself for all that courage) - After the rejection, went back to fapping vigorously - First fap session was easily a binge which lasted a few hours and had 3 orgasms. - Been losing confidence and all, became socially awkward, couldn't hold a convo with anyone especially girls, heart pumping and all you name it but couldnt help it so - Tried to get back to nofap but always succumbed to it every 3 days ~ a week - Couldn't bare the weak me - Determined and decided to really nofap - The first month, the whole month, was HELL - It was the worst I've ever been, no confidence, tired ALL THE TIME no matter how much I slept, avoiding girls I like and stuff (I know) - Worst experience I ever had and my self-esteem was really fucked - Was doubting nofap and all but recalled what I achieved last time so I struggled through - After the 1 month mark, I didnt instantly gained all I lost back but it gradually came back (over a long course) - I reckoned I had my confidence and all back only after like 4-5 months of nofap - It was getting better all the time but it just wasnt there (cause I knew what I could have become) - Now at 180 days, I'm just at the best form, period. - I'm talking to girls without problem unless I'm really lack of sleep or I had one (or more) wet dreams the night before. - Yes I got twice wet dreams in one night at approximately ~160 days mark - Been having wet dreams like once every week now - Will feel a bit loss of the super power after WD but it's not gonna be a real problem and it goes away fast enough That's it. Thats my journey and I'm not gonna give up whatsoever now since I know I'll be really really fucked if I relapse again. It was a really really hard journey to get back into it. I've done 180 days and so can you. I'll prolly post again when I hit 365. Cheers.