2 years

It's 2years since I felt loved. My mom is working really hard and is never around and when she is she isn't emotionally available. My sister wants to do drugs all the time. I am currently away at college and I have difficulty making friends. I am socializing and trying to make friends FYI.
I just found out that my sister is doing heroin. All the while I can't help but think about my uncle saying that I am not there enough for my family.

Sorry for being negative.

This is what going on in my head tonight.

 

I’m sorry to hear about your sister, but you should not beat yourself up over her choices. Be supportive of her if she wants to get clean, but be careful not to enable her. It’s a fine line that many have crossed.

I realize that family is important, but so are your dreams, aspirations and your feelings. You’re an adult now taking responsibility for yourself by going to college to better yourself. You need to be somewhat selfish at this time and fight for what is going to put you on a path for future success. If you can help and be supportive of your family at this time, then great. However, you’ve been afforded an opportunity that not everyone gets, so make sure you make the most of it.

As far as you and your friend situation, be patient and continue to socialize. Friendships take time to cultivate, but they will develop. I think that a lack of friends was what I hated most about my 1st year at college. You have lots of acquaintances, but your go to friends that you had in HS or in your neighborhood were just not there. It will get better and those friendships will come.

 

You certainly love your family, and you want to love and be loved! In this site I read someone's thread telling that he read a book, called "You Can Heal your Life". I read it my self, too! I truly recommend you to read it! It worths the try!