20 and wanting to improve confidence in my sexuality and with relationships

I've gone for 5 months once, but since then I couldn't get back on track. Although my porn use has dramatically decreased in 2018 unlike what it was in 2017, I still feel an urge to try and watch it. I feel like it's because I've only ever been on two dates in my life (both when I was 17 and in high school) and I've been wanting to try and develop a romantic connection with a women. I guess I don't know how just yet, but I'm willing to make changes so I can love myself and others even more.