20M: let's begin anew

Hey guys, new user here.

Hell, I don't even know where to start this first post. I'll be honest, I feel like i'm walking into an "Alcoholics Anonymous" meeting, except this time it's for PMO. I feel shame, shame of having this problem in the first place, but also a teeny tiny bit of will to turn this thing around. So let's do this.

I'm a 20 year-old male student from Canada. I've been PMOing since I was a teenager. I'll be honest, I don't really know why I did it. Instinct, maybe? Testosterone? God knows why. Never had sex though, had a girlfriend once but it didn't work out, communication issues.

I've been trying to get into med school for the past two years, but I never did manage to succeed. So far I only managed to get subpar grades, and because of my failures to get good, I would seek comfort in the small pleasures that I could get. You know what I mean.

So I guess what I'm trying to say is that I'm sick and tired of living in the shadow of my true potential. It sounds stupid, but I really think that PMO is what's been holding me back these past few years: always fixated on the gratuitous pleasure, not focused on sacrifices and hard work that was needed to get the prize at the end, i.e an acceptance letter in med school. I've been trying to quit a couple of times now (record was one month without PMO) but this post marks my commitment to begin something new. I know it sounds cheesy, but I'd like this post to be a new step in taking my life back.

I don't expect this journey to be calm or even easy, but I guess taking a first step is better than taking none at all. And if other newcomers want to join me on this, then I gladly welcome them aboard. Let's speak to each other, be each other's accountability partner or something. And if we fall... Then we'll have someone to help us up.

Here's to a (hopefully) successful story of quitting PMO. Thanks to everyone who would take the time to read my intro post. I'm immediately going to delete my porn collection after hitting the "create thread" button.

J0ker, day 1, signing out for now.