21 with masturbation addiction which seems to affect erections

Hi all,

I have only just found NoFap and signed up to the forums so bare with me!

I am 21, around 5'10" in height and about 70kg. I've been masturbating since around 14, and in recent years I've been masturbating a minimum of 2 times per day, often in the 3-6 range. In recent years I have become concerned not only with my masturbation addiction, but also the quality of my erections and semen. I don't have a porn addiction, as I often can masturbate simply through visualising people etc. When I ejaculate, even if I have a break for two days, I notice my semen is often rather watery, and while I wouldn't say it's 100% transparent it certainly isn't a 'dense white'. As well as this, my erections are also not very strong. I still ejaculate when I masturbate, my penis is certainly far from my maximum length.

A few years ago, probably when I was around 16, I measured my erect penis for the first time. I'm pretty sure it was around 5.6-5.7 inches which I was content with. Now however, my penis struggles to even hit 5 inches when erect. As someone who is recently single and only had one girlfriend before, I am naturally insecure and worried about meeting women again. When meeting a girl a few months ago, I could not get hard at all. Handjob, blow job, nothing. Obviously I couldn't try having sex with a flaccid penis, so I told her I had drank too much (a lie).

I am now 2 days into NoFap, and I aiming to reach my birthday (middle of July) before I next masturbate. I would be extremely grateful if anyone had any tips/advice, especially if anyone knows whether my penis will ever go back to greater length when erect as this is something I'm very insecure about.

All the best and thanks in advance

 

Thank you, really appreciate it. 5 days in and I'm feeling good, no real urges as of yet. Sometimes a sexual thought will pop up but have managed to distract myself so the thoughts go away.

 

Thanks for the advice, really appreciated

 

So today I hit day 6 of no PMO. First day I had my first real urge. I had a few sexually related dreams last night, and woke up with what I'd call a semi. I was so tempted to masturbate. I'm glad to say I didn't do anything except hold my penis, but stopped myself from 'tugging' on it. Pleased with myself, but reminded me of how hard this journey could be..

 

So it happened. I relapsed. I had a whole night of no sleep, I went to bed at 11pm and had to be up at 7:30am in which time I managed 10 minutes of sleep. I thought fapping might help. Here's my thoughts:

- Disappointed I managed only 6 days.
- BUT: part of me is sort of glad. One of the problems I spoke about was my concerns about my semen and its colour. After 6 days no PMO, my semen was normal - white and thick (not watery like before)
- Because of this, I'm actually more motivated than I was before to now have a long streak of no PMO because after 6 days I've already seen how it can help with my problems. If it's helped with my semen, I'm intrigued at what else it can help with through a longer spell of abstinence.

So in summary yes I'm disappointed not to have done longer, but after this first attempt at no PMO I'm more motivated than other to go longer. Hopefully this second attempt will go much longer than 6 days!