26 year old newbie

Hii everyone my name is shu. I am 26 year old currently I am an advocate, I started watching porn and masturbation when i was 14 years old. I was not aware whether it was right or wrong, I used to have a elder friend name xyz. He pushed into that direction or was misguided, but as the time pass and i learn more about this and I started becoming aware of this right information and got to know that things has demerits in a large way, but that time i was addicted and i was knowing this think is not good for me but unable to get out of it as it was so difficult and become a part of my daily routine, last night i have seen too much porn and done masturbation I know it was wrong but i can not control on my self. After Masturbation at morning 3:00 A.M. I have search for how to come out from this. There was no one with whom i can share my things, my story and Then i Find this nofap community to come out from this situation. This is my first post


I wanted to get out from this addiction, I'm planned my first goal to be kept is 1 day and then for 30 days as i start improving I'll be increase the day may be 100 days

 

Day 0
i backup at 11 am then after back up go to bath at 12 then do my office work then I don't know how to use this nofab community website and i use to how its work no web website at 3.00 I have read so many story on this community. after reading so many story on nofap. before reading these story I think that i am the only worst person that do masturbation and see the porn. after attaching this i find that there are so many people like me here. all person want's to forgive their addiction. I promise my self that I will not see the p..... and do the mas....... . I promise My self that I will throw away these things from my life.
AT 6 P.M I go on a roof then I talk to my friends up to 8.Pm
after 8.pm I listen some news.
after 9.pm I go on my first floor I saw a front house that there lives a couple they are doning sex.
Then after seeing I think that I should do a masturbation.

I control on my self after seeing these things I do pushup to remove these thoughts from my mind.
after that at 11 pm I am thinking about thoughts again and again. for get out this thought i put my mind into a game.

I think I should give a no. for the whole day
happiness 3/5
busyness 2/5
social interaction 3/5
exhausation 1/5
stress 3/5
urges 1/5

 

Day 1
hey friends I am shu. I wake up at 9.am then I take a bath 10.am. Then I go for my work at 12 I fully concentrate on my work. I think that I have done well not done masturbation on the last day . after a day a go on a roof at 5.45
then I talk to my so many friends. at 7.00 I take dinner when i was on a roof I see here and there I was alone on a roof. I got an urge. that urge remains half an hour in my mind.
I wanted to see a p... on that time but i controlled on my self. At that time I was felling a lot that I should a p.... at this time. But I controlled on my self. after coming down from the roof I take dinner and spend some time with my family.
at 9.30 pm again I go on a first floor again on a day i saw those couples that I have talked in my last thread. i watches them upto half an hour from my window. I seeing them I had an urge. It's remain into my mind up to half hour. to remove this urge listen a song and play a game for removing these thoughts from my mind.



after 12 I got to bed...

I think I should give a no. for the whole day
happiness 2/5
busyness 3/5
social interaction 3/5
exhausation 2/5
stress 3/5
urges 1/5

Always be happy! move you mind in a good thoughts and read good books

 

Thanks you neet

 

thanks you eagle for this compliment . as I will do when I urges comes to me. Again thanks.

 

thanks bro

 

thanks you sir ya I really follow swami vivekanand.