Hey there I realised I had a problem with porn when I started looking at really gross and degrading porn, and replicating that in my sex life. I felt like I was treating myself less than human. It has impacted my sleep, my weight, my social life and has stopped me from having normal long term relationships. Not sure where to go from here
I underwent the same thing. I still remember the porn I started watching and the type of porn I watch today is world's apart. There are alot of scientific studies on it, so don't worry. I'm 29 days into a PMO reboot and slowly those things are fading away. It will take longer for the neural connections formed to detach, and for the brain to heal, but if you stick with the programme, you'll reach there. All the best to you brother. Hope you recover too. Just remember, the person you think you are based on watching porn isn't the true you. They aren't your true sexual preferences. It just rewires your brain using dopamine, but dopamine isn't what gives you long lasting and true satisfaction. P screws up our brain. Everyone here is on a journey of self discovery. Welcome to the group.
https://fightthenewdrug.org/how-porn-can-become-an-escalating-behavior/ Just one of the hundreds of articles you can read. If you want more, I'll share them. But don't for a moment doubt that you won't find your true self after recovery. You will. And that will be built on true satisfaction of your preferences and not short living dopamine neural connections made by your brain, which gives a short term high but also guilt and loathing because they are a deviation from your true self.