40 Days, 40 nights of Pure retention

Hey Guys, I made to another 40days of pure retention .
The benefits are real , I created an earlier thread, saying there-are-no-benefits , boy was I wrong. I relapsed after that thread, it was crazy , like a trap , I was trapped in lust, relapsed quite a few times.

But now I have hardened and deep into the journey , sometimes I get a few urges, physical sensations, I cut them off.
First of all I feel whole, rather wholesome, I feel complete and satisfied , this a very weird feeling since the last two years I always felt to chase something out of lust and greed. This itself is a reason to do SR

I have abandoned the mental reasoning of needing a partner. Now I seek company of good friends and men , who help each other , in reaching our common dreams and goals. I feel happy and satisfied.

Female-attraction is subjective and quite random , cannot say for sure.

Energy is insane, not tired, not sleepy.

Motivation is also crazy.

Memory , I actually train my memory, so I can memorize 80 random digits in a min, 8 digits in a second, 5 random words in 0.5s . 52 random cards under a min.
I hope to train my memory more harder.


Purity in thought is what determines your streak

I must thank the God(s) for answering my prayers