So I've made it to 60 days Hard Mode... Absolutely no ejaculation, or edging at all. I'm proud of myself, because it's not easy, but I've set myself this goal and I want to succeed. I'm flatlining right now, which makes the desire to MO or PMO lesser, but then you have to deal with what flatlining brings: Mood swings Depression Loss of libido Apathy General fucked upness in the head... I'm looking forward to being free of all this... I look at some of the posts that guy's make '5 Days! Feel like Superman!', or 'Day 19 - Superpowers', and I wonder why this isn't happening to me... I did have many MANY false starts before I got to where I am, and did feel great at the beginning, but now I just feel... Meh... Anyway... I keep fighting the fight, and saying No! Looking forward to PMO freedom... I know it won't be over in 30 days, it will be with me forever, but like when I smoked and I couldn't quit that, I kept going and eventually it became a habit of my past... A part of my life that I now frown and laugh at... That's what this is... The doorway to a new me that I will look back on, and see this masturbating porn freak, and frown and laugh... I'll always own and love that part of me though, because he's helping me get through the door... Sometimes it's hard to walk through a new door, and many times I've shut it... This time though, I have my foot wedged in there tight... It's not going to close before I walk through it! Keep on keeping on fellow Fapstronauts!!