A litlle out of zone.. :-(

So as of always i relapsed another time no wonder.
But just watching a instagram pic and then
i went to porn site and then i just watched a perticular pornstar which i've not seen for a long time and got me so much arroused that now my willpower was just a joke and i could feel that something inside my head was telling me that you have to masterbate bruv....
and this is sounding so lame and funny but i'm sharing the same experience that i was having at that very moment.
And all this happend within 1 hour since i woke up in the morning.
I mourned for straight 30 minutes after that and laughing at myself that how a instagram pic lead me to a pornsite and jizzed in pants.
But now it's been successful 2 days and now i don't have any urges.
feeling good from inside man let's try to hold it as long as possible.
And i also have learned one thing that the day you say to yourself that i
have mastered that skill of nofap or i will not do it anymore whatever happens even if lana rhoades start to twerk in front of me..
this shit is for kids bro wake up you can never be sure if you gonna do it or not cuz you are on a experiment every single time .
you don't know when your mood swings and you end up wanking in your pants or whatever.
But you can enjoy the journey for sure!!! but being sure make you nervous every single second of your life.
And you have that extreme low esteem after doing that shit again regardless how sure you were some minutes ago.
and dopamine detox is for sure this ain't no joke bro!
But the key is you to repeat it over and over cuz i doesn't matter how many times you fail but you will get it at some point people try everything for few times and get frustated and they leave everything and start doing the same old shit where they were before but you can do that same old shit but still doing that good thing which requires zero efforts.
this thing is streching very long so i wil explain it sometimes later.