I've been putting this off for a long time now. I've known I had a problem many years when I first began to suffer from DE during sex and I physical addiction to watch more and more porn. Here is a short story about my history with porn. I was first introduced to porn when I was young I believe it was grade 4 or 5 when I stole a deck of playboy playing cards that had pictures of nude models on them. I brought then to school and showed the other kids, I was a hero for a week. I didn't start masturbating till years later probably grade 7 or 8 staying up late and watching soft-core porn on tv this became I habit for me, Friday night I would make sure I was home and ready for a short glimpse of a boob. I wish I had left it at that! When things started to become a problem is when I first got a computer, The internet opened up a whole new world to explore. I was addicted and that soft-core porn became harder and harder. In my late teens I suffered from depression and anxiety and I used porn as an escape. A moment when nothing else mattered and I could release all my frustration , but these habits have stayed with me years down the road and the release is followed up by guilt and shame. I am ready to change this part of my life. I stumbled on this site recently and had my doubts, but as I started reading "porn addiction basics" and a few forums I saw that I have a lot in common with all you and that maybe I can fix this. this will be my first serious attempt. My goal is 30 days no PM.
@Powell welcome to nofap. I am glad you are here! I remember I used to stay up late to watch a glimpse of nudity on TV my self but Internet killed all of our innocence. I talked to therapists as far back as 2004 to make productive use of my time but they had no clue how to tackle this. Yes, we are all reading about this issue on internet forums and trying to tackle it. Hopefully scientific community wakes up and stops denying this as a problem. To get maximum out of your effort I encourage you to come here on regular basis and participate in the community and you will make progress. I wish you good luck.
