A weakness worth noting

Hey Fapstronauts,
I go by Achilles. Not my name, I just thought it interesting to adopt the name of a tragic hero who did everything right except observe his own weakness. I do try to contrast his fate by calling myself also "Mindful". I believe all of us have a weakness and learning the balance of living with it is what we're after.

I'm in my late 20s. For the past 8 months, I've been going through counseling, as well as instructing myself in all the aspects (physical, emotional, mental, spiritual) of a non-PMO chosen path and its benefits. Truth is, that benefits were not what got me here in the first place, but the realization that there was an alternative that I hadn't explored. It all started when I revealed to my girlfriend the fact that PMO had been a long standing issue throughout my teenage years and into my adulthood, with different stops here and there, yet with a persistent compulsiveness that had caused me to deprive myself of success in life and career. Her pain and reaction have awakened every part of me to want to officially end this affair.

I'm happy to say that so far, this new journey has had a lot of good effects on me personally, and as days go by and I kick my poor path-of-least-resistance goodbye, I find myself more in love with the active part of choosing differently and engaging life with intentionality. The tough part is mending relationships that were affected by my choices, such as with my girlfriend who I love very much. The best I can do right now is hold true to who I want to be. To myself, first and foremost, but also to her and the man she deserves.

I don't obsess over days and streaks, but it's been almost three months since I last actively searched for porn. And it's been about three weeks since I last MO'd. I don't miss it one bit.

Hoping to learn more from people in the forum.

Mindfully,
Achilles.