Addiction, vital energy depletion, and objectification (oh my)

I've tried to get involved with the NoFap community a few times over the years, but haven't yet been willing or able to truly commit.

Masturbation and porn have been regular parts of my life for a long time. The only times I went a while without fapping were when I was in sexually-active relationships.

I'm in recovery from drug addiction and binge-eating. 64 days clean in those regards. I feel like when I give in to impulses to fap into porn, I am keeping a door cracked open to my other, more noticeably harmful addictions. I desire to have a largely compulsion-free life.

I've long suspected that when I masturbate, I'm depleting myself of vital life-force that may be better used in other ways. I am not sure how true that is, but I truly want to live without masturbation and find out what life is like.

When I use a lot of porn, I start to see those images in my mind's eye when I am doing other things. I don't like that. It makes me feel like I've violated myself.

Really, I want to be free. When I got clean of drugs, I went a couple weeks without fapping, but then I did so, which made it easier to want to do it again and again. I've had more restraint than normal over the past 64 days, but it's getting harder and harder to abstain. And a great fear of mine is, like I said, that by giving in to this addiction, I may be priming myself up to give in to others.

I want to have firm boundaries with myself, and to respect those boundaries.

So here I am, trying to figure this out, seeking out guidance and interaction with anyone who related to any of these premises. Thanks for your time.