Hi guys! I don't wanna give my name, sorry But anyway, is that important? Please forgive my english and if there are typos, I'm french btw. It's my gazillion time that I fail, I tried a ton of methods, and now I'm feeling right now really bother and helpless in front of my addiction. It's really a shame to be an expert of recovery but being unable to use this knowledge enough to suceed. I don't wanna blame myself, as I said I'm an expert now and I know it's such a waist of time.. uhhhhhhhh. Anyway, by where to start? It might be important to say that I never reach more than 20 days, and I'm starting think that my issue is mostly rely on anxiety and stress who makes me use pornography as a buffer to avoid as much as I can to suffer from it. I due know what make me happy, but I'm feeling quite alone through my streak. Even though I told to my girlfriend, she just could be until now a mirror of my addiction post relapse talk, and she can't do the streak instead of me. Actually I can say I'm quite really lucky, because I found out I'm so affraid by some aspect of the life, and more specifically about my career choice : I want to be a musical artist, and this makes me soooo stress. And I'm really upset that is so expensive to get a talk with a psychanalyst who can have an impact only with a regular appointment, I visited one few times but damn the price is so high. Et voilà, it was really messy first post. Sorry for that.. I hope I will come to this forum tomorrow and maybe find a solution with you guys. Have a good night!