Wake up...morning wood and thinking about sex Work out...temporary relief and then i think more about sex w/ fit gym girls Eat a large meal...mmm very satiating now i want to get my dick sucked Sex is on my mind 24/7. Every trigger I avoid, 2 more pop up. Im so goddamn horny, i just want to reach 30 days no pmo but it feels so impossible!
Be happy about that I'm on my 8th day and I wish I could only think of sex and fucking other women The only thing I can think of is DEATH. I used PMO as a mean to avoid the question and reality of death and possible afterlife Right now, without PMO, I'm CRUSHING under those emotions coming up. Teletubbies inviting me for big hugs after I die, Some North Indian wise spiritual man telling me some secret truths while I'm exploring Asia.
Thats brutal man. PMO helps me cope with depression too, but death is not something i constantly think about Why not look into religion? Or what different cultures think about the afterlife Traveling laso seems like a good way to distract yourself, but why are these thoughts on your mind in the first place?
I'm Catholic, but not practitioning (prayer time mainly) because of basically laziness I used to watch gore videos in the past. I went on specific websites and watched people getting executed and that stuff. It was when I discovered that there were suicide recordings too (like someone streamed their suicide and it was uploaded to gore websites afterwards) which triggered that WE WILL ALL DIE thinking, it was then when I realized that I am watching a person painfully going on that long lonely journey which comes after death. I even used to get panic attacks afterwards. Never again, I've been gore free for almost 2 years now But the thoughts are still there. That we are fragile. That we all will die. And when we will die we will take this journey ALONE Just as Oasis sang, live forever. That's what I want, to live forever here on earth. No death. You can check out my thread in the rebooting section. I went through hell today when I took a nap
