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Fapstronaut
Hi all, i feel super lonely i don't have any friends to hang out with, even my girlfriend left me.
Currently i am 23 years and i feel time is passing so fast, i lost confidence in people because people did bully me a lot when i was younger and that made me to what i am today. I really would like friends to chill with but i'v never developed the skill of making good friends and been always a lone wolf. At first it did not matter to me but i am realizing i have this need for friends more and more. I had one very good friend, he was a true one but unfortunately he passed away last year in a horrible way, the images of his body being recovered are still daily in my mind. I am going a lot to the gym, i really like it but even there i cannot manage to make some friends.
I have the feeling everyone is thinking i am a weirdo over there, because i am the type of guy which is always there with my earbuds in listing to music and almost never communicating with people over there. But that is simply because i feel people judging me and it makes me uncomfortable. At this point i feel like a failure, and don't know what i should do. I have been today to a gym in another city, i thought it would be a good thing but then there was a guy over there which always bullied me and i did feel instant being judged, also another friend was training there, not really a friend but before he did move to this gym we sometimes trained together, and he is part of a group of guys and girls who are really dedicated to go to the gym, the same as me but when i see this group i feel exactly the same: ''they see me as this guy who is never talking to anyone and listening to music''
When i am at home or with people i trust i am a different person but i can't get myself in expressing the good things i have to offer.
Hope someone can provide me with some useful advice on this.
Currently i am 23 years and i feel time is passing so fast, i lost confidence in people because people did bully me a lot when i was younger and that made me to what i am today. I really would like friends to chill with but i'v never developed the skill of making good friends and been always a lone wolf. At first it did not matter to me but i am realizing i have this need for friends more and more. I had one very good friend, he was a true one but unfortunately he passed away last year in a horrible way, the images of his body being recovered are still daily in my mind. I am going a lot to the gym, i really like it but even there i cannot manage to make some friends.
I have the feeling everyone is thinking i am a weirdo over there, because i am the type of guy which is always there with my earbuds in listing to music and almost never communicating with people over there. But that is simply because i feel people judging me and it makes me uncomfortable. At this point i feel like a failure, and don't know what i should do. I have been today to a gym in another city, i thought it would be a good thing but then there was a guy over there which always bullied me and i did feel instant being judged, also another friend was training there, not really a friend but before he did move to this gym we sometimes trained together, and he is part of a group of guys and girls who are really dedicated to go to the gym, the same as me but when i see this group i feel exactly the same: ''they see me as this guy who is never talking to anyone and listening to music''

Hope someone can provide me with some useful advice on this.