Any Ex-Drug Addicts on Here Able to Answer My Question?

As a recovered amphetamine addict pmo is honestly the most ingrained and challenging issue I have yet to defeat.

Drugs are bad. Everyone knows that. But pmo is almost socially acceptable so when you finally realise and need to do something about it, the damage is done and you are swimming against the current.

 

I feel in my case that it was fairly easy to quit both. I had good reasons for both. With drugs I started to become paranoid when I never did before on drugs and all of a sudden I started having bad panic attacks. I've developed a kinda constant anxiety because of my drug use but I'm learning little by little to over come it. As in PMO I noticed that ever since in my teens when I would try and have sex but I couldn't get up or stay up for more that 10 seconds and then I withdrew from women and just sat infront of a screen and PMO'd my brains out multiple times a day for years. Then I found the girl I love and still couldn't get hard. I looked up why and knew I was to you to have legit ED and found out porn was damaging me. So I quit that easily too but went back to PMO after I noticed my dick worked again because I could penetrate and O. Then went to be intimate with my girl again later in the week and I still could get up but couldn't O so now I'm never PMO or MO again. My girlfriend will be my only source of getting a O.

 

Honestly speaking for me quitting drugs was a walk in the park compared to quitting PMO. I could distance myself from drugs and the people I associate them with physically but it's way harder when your supply is stuck to your body. My biggest problem with quitting them both at the same time was that if I got the urge take a drug then I would usually remember using and masturbating at the same time so both the urges would hit me like a ton of bricks. At those times I would run outside and just keep running until I felt like the demons weren't chasing me anymore. But yeah for me the urge to fap was way more recurring than the drugs maybe because I have seen it as something natural all my life and that way of thinking was harder to correct than my view on drugs which I always knew I had to quit at some point.

 

Pmo is more of a challenge to overcome because it is the personal battle with yourself.

It is less obvious to hide a drug problem from others or your bank account. Fapping is free. Short term it seems to offer release from its grip without hurting others . And as the solitary nature of it keeps fapping as "ones dirty little secret." It is easier to conseal.

Drug taking is social. Difficult to disguise and socially more discussed than fapping. So it is easier to get support to quit drugs.

Cessation of PMO required real grit. Willpower, blind determination and initially no tangible benefits for almost a month so was very difficult to give up as less intial incentive .

Both rewarding. But for different reasons. Stopping pmo saved my soul and made me realise there was a life to pursue. Stopping drugs was a withdrawal but wirh immediate benefits.