Are you dyslexic?

Hey what's up. I have dyslexia also. I understand a lot of what you are taking about. I know as a kid I got help for my dyslexia but it still it's strong. I'm addicted to porn and other relationship sinkers. I am doing this for me and my family. Day 9 of 30. Start small and build from there.

 

I also have sex daily.

 

Hey dude.

I have dyslexia as well. It doesn't show on the internet because I get the red line under my words that tells me when the letters are in the wrong place. To this day I can hardly tell when and I just assume that whoever invented the spell check on my browser knows what they are doing.

I also had a hard time at school, I failed every year of high school in part because I was so frustrated and didn't know how to do any of the work but also because of a lot of personal issues. A small alternative program with 5 to 10 students saved me. I think those programs often get a bad reputation because they have the kids in them who smoke and carry knives or dye their hair a bunch of neat colours. Looking back on it, I wish all schools had small class sizes with teachers who can see through teenagers who are "fronting" like they are tough but really just want love and support like the rest of us.

In terms of porn I don't know if my dyslexia is related to it at all but what I can say is even in absence I miss it a lot. My reasons for staying away from porn are all about ethics. I watch straight porn and I worry about the women. I wonder how many of them choose to be in porn out of a place of health and wellness or how many of them are doing it because they "have to." I also worry about the off chance that people are lying about their age or the straight up exploitation of underage individuals. I also worry about the men too and the fact that one day they may stop making porn and wonder what happened or why they engaged in the creation of porn. I don't know the more I think about it the more I realize the whole business is shady and I don't want to engage in it. I also honest, worry about clicking on the wrong thing then having to get a lawyer or something because of it. I haven't been to a porn site since December but more recently I googled the name of a porn star. I didn't even get as far as her scandalous photos - all the photos I saw of her were fully clothed but still I was right? Also while were on it - I hate the internet and all the images on it. I am in my 30's and I just feel dumb that most images i see are of women who are way younger then me. Like even when I'm not on porn sites there are constantly just random women posing in some amazing outfit. I don't need that shit. I don't want to be a creepy ass old dude who is staring at younger women. I want to be better then that.

That was a bit of a rant on my end so thank you for the therapy session.

I hope you have a nice day