Been here. Done that. Hello Everybody!

Hello everyone,

Glad to be a part of this awesome community again. Hope you all are doing great. I feel great on joining back, this time going on the softer note P!

I joined this community almost 2 years back (or maybe earlier) when I went through the Chapter Number 11 of the book 'Think and Grow Rich' by Napoleon Hill where he talked about transmuting your sexual desires into something worthwhile. The idea was good enough to grab my attention and I jumped into it head on.

However, it took me just 11 days (yup 11, what an irony) to fail this. Honestly, I felt like shit. Earlier, I was quite a masturbator (don't know if this word exists). Now, I was quite a masturbator with guilt attached. I went from porn to sexting real quick and finally developed some bisexual tendencies and had video sex with a number of men as well. My guilt and self confidence degraded day by day. It was then that I decided I need help. Found NoFap and got an AP.

But luck! Not on my side!! My AP and me were both Bi and soon we got attached and we felt into the same trap again. This was when I quit NoFap . However, this time I took a very strong resolution and went for the hard mode. Result: I succeeded! Went 40 days clean.

But...

I lost my libido. I was sexless. No morning erections. In fact I didn't feel much difference as of superpowers. I was still the same asshole that I used to be before the PMO (lol). Although my mind was clear, my dick was sleepy. This was when it struck me I has ED. No, I'm not trying to demotivate you guys, just telling my story. Soon I felt helpless. I did some workout, took special care of my diet. No luck! This was when I realized I need to use it to gain it back. Decided to M and O. Used porn to bring desire back into my head. Did rigorous exercise. Ate healthy. Slept well. Result: I succeeded again! My erections were back! Although not that strong as earlier but still.

Now, I was a confused being. M and O keeps me sexually healthy. PMO makes me feel guilty and useless. Finally, I got the math behind this. PMO - MO = P! I realized porn sets some wrong expectations in my head and makes me compulsive, so I feel bad. But, the natural healthy M and O actually feels rewarding and pumps up my state of being.

Right, that is why I came back here with the motivation to stay on track and abstain from Porn completely. Just porn! I hope to succeed this time too like I always had.

I wish everybody here who are looking forward to achieve their goals all the very best. You all are awesome!

 

Welcome back :+)

 

Welcome to the community!

 

Thanks everyone!