So yeah yesterday I was so hungover. I had actually been out drinking the entire night and hadn't slept. So I was actually still a little drunk but also hungover. The level of sexual arousal I had was unreal. But unfortunately yesterday I done something really crazy where I spent the entire day or cam sites phoning models. I ended up wasting £260 pound. I am extremely upset about this. But the thing that is more worrying me is I feel like I can trust my self a lot of the time, especially if I am drunk or hungover. I get so sexually turned on that I even feel excited to spend the money on that rubbish. Like it feels like a sort of rush at the time doing it. Obviously now I would never do it. But when I am in that frame of mind it does scare me. I suppose it's kind of like someone who is seriously addicted to gambling being in a casino with a lot of money when they're drunk. Not a good idea. But I even think that is much better than wasting loads of your money on porn/cam sites. I am just really upset and worried because I don't want it to happen again. The thing is £260 is bad enough. But what if one day it ended up being much more or something? I felt like I couldn't control my self yesterday.
I have same problem with video games (I was addicted to it too), one addiction fuels another. I remember binging on gaming and PMO successively. I had many streaks ended with me starting just playing for some time - ‘it’s ok I thought’, but after I had really enormous rush for PMO, so I understand your feeling. Only when I stopped video games I achieved some success in long term abstaining from pmo, so I recommend you to consider abstaining from alcohol also (try 30 days for example), if not I think it is too difficult to abstain from PMO when drunk.
