bring it on

hi guys...today is my first day and I have a lot of questions and need your support.

firstly about me : I am 34 year old male and have been masturbating for last 17 odd years and I always believed that this was a absolutely normal practice and here is nothing to worry about.

I started watching porn guess when I was 19 and was regular at it....I would say I was not addicted to porn but was getting addicted to masturbation....incase porn was not available I would use wild imagination and relax myself...I had a healthy sex life in my early 20s and would be rock solid...after my initial break up I was not inclined to get into any relationship and was happy masturbating with or without the porn....I have now realized that I have not slept with a female for last 7 years...rather I was not motivated too....I am physically fit with healthy body weight ratio...I have stable job...decent income...I recently had a encounter with a really hot girl...and guess what!!...I wasn't able to perform...infact I did not get a hard erection....I thought maybe its performance anxiety...I had another opportunity after a few weeks...and the same thing happened...infact I had to cook up a story to the girl...I am tired....have a back pain...but deep down I realized something is wrong somewhere...we ended up masturbating each other....while she was stroking me I realized I had an erection...but was semi hard...but when I masturbate alone to my wild imagination I get a decent erection...but off late I have realized that even if I don't have hard erection while I am masturbating alone in my room I still persist and ease my self....but I have realized that a semi erect penis can not enter a vagina.
I want my life backkk....I want to completely quit this masturbating and see the changes...as they say" masturbation is like screwing your self"

has any of you ever felt or experienced this....I am sure I will be able to come back to my normal self...

any comments are welcome...