Since nofap my life has greatly improved but I feel like I lost pretty much all of my progress when I went into this binge relapse mode two weeks ago. I PMO'ed about 10 times during 14 days and I since then I went 6 days without PMO and relapsed again. I just can't stop doing it even tho it's only damaging me and my mental health. After relapsing I feel paranoid, have a lot of negative thoughts and lack the desire to socialize and I feel socially awkward in general. My longest streak was 37 days and I truly did feel amazing, I wanted to go out and talk to people and that to me was the biggest "superpower" ever because I was really introverted since I began PMOing. I'm going to meet my new roomates in 5 days and I'm starting to panic since I ruined my streak and I probably won't make a good impression on them in this state. The worst part is that most of my relapses were because I was drunk because I socializing without it is hard because i relapsed and it's a vicious circle. I have seen the benefits with my own eyes and the drawbacks of PMO and yet I can't get a 30+ days streak again. I really need some motivational words or stories to help me keep going.