My name is Joe and I'm a 26 year old fapaholic. Been going strong since I was 12, wow...now that I've put it into words, I've been jerkin it longer than I haven't. What's that called? Point of no return or someshit...oh well. My addiction to porn and the good ol fap fap has lead me down a lubed up road of slippery twists and turns emotionally, physically and spiritually. Not sure where my social anxiety stemmed from, but I'm sure porns got something to do with it. Laziness, lack of drive, apathy, loss of sexual interest, depression and a constant state of desiring nothing less then relaxation due to my inability to say no to beatin the lifejuice outta my drumstick. The funny thing is that I'm a pretty damn looking guy, above average shape without having to try...one of those types who doesn't have to try in order to get decent grades, pretty good socially even though it doesn't feel like it on the inside, and have no problem attracting women...but something about how I view women makes me feel uncomfortable with them...actually, I'm sure it's a combination of my consistent PMO and all the movies/tv I've watched, which leaves me desiring to be the perfect guy and always have the perfect answer with all these superdudes with their overly perfect perfectness. Sweet, suave, manly, strong with a soft, loving, cute, patient, driven and super highly intelligent personality...Well, f^*k it. Not gonna happen. Anyways, joined up here to reclaim my "essence" so to say. Gonna try for 60 days to begin with...couldn't even do that when I was on deployment on my ship for 3 months...
Joe, Staring here is a good beginning. Get a good porn blocker to start with. Unless you can have the control to just not look. Not even a peek. Your mind will resist you in many ways to get the rush you have given it for so many years. This is not an overnight fix either. It is a long and hard road to those who have gone a lot of years in this addiction. Take each day at a time. Find many ways to help distract your mind when you are tempted to porn or masturbation. You may want an accountability partner to help you stay on track. You may even need local help. My prayers are with you stay strong and keep faith in yourself to overcome this. You can do it.
Hey Joe,My name is Joe also,Your story sounds similar to mine although the age I started porn is differnt and Im much older than you.any way just wanted to encourage you.Im two weeks into this battle myself.hang in there.
