Last week I made a pact with myself: if I managed to stay PM for the whole November, I would have written this topic. I wanted to motivate myself to make it, as it was a tough time. So I am here. I am in Italy, so it is afternoon of the 1st of December. As I made it, I will write now. I started this journey in October. On the 2nd of October, I "forgot" to have my daily ration of P and M, as I was busy for the first day of the new academic year. I am a student of mechanical enginereeing, I am 22 years old. On the 4th of October, I was slightly willing to have my ration, but my body decided to play against me. I just did not want to jerk me off, even less willing to do it with a porn video. So I decided by myself "ok, let's try to see how much I can resist without it!" It began like this. I've been without porn since 2nd of October. Tomorrow, it will be two months. In the meantime, I had masturbation twice, 14th and 15th of October. And countless wet dreams. What can I say? What did it bring me? It tempered me, I learnt the virtue of temperance and moderation. I got de-intoxycated by porn. My fantasies are far more normal. I am able to sustain a girl looking to me. I don't have anymore fear of being discovered. I don't feel anymore that there is a part of me that must be hidden. I quitted with chats, I started to focus on real people. I am starting to be looked by girls, to be appreciated, I am able to flirt a bit, to be funny, ironic, lighthearted. Inside me, I am far closer to the man I always wanted to be. I go out more often, I am far more witty in my answers. I forgot what was having plenties of free time. The journey is not over, I must arrive to day 105, as I am also on a challenge made by a member which I joined while already on the track. A lot of changes have to be made: I am in a therapy, to overcome emotional blocks with girls that came out in a great group. But I have to fight just some more, she says that "we are at last metres of a marathon". And well, I am single... Feel free to ask everything. There are so many things that I can't write them down on a single post!
My entire look changed. I assume that it effectively reduced a lot the effects of acne on my face, but I have also to say that I started to take care a lot of myself, to use dedicated creams for visage, to shave more often, to cut my hair. I can say that I hear my voice far more masculine, but maybe it is a consequence of my enhanced confidence etc... Other questions please!
To be honest I don't remember... I did not notice it. I can say that I experienced some days I felt very weak, but nothing particular