Hi all I am new to this site and am going through all the steps in the guidelines for recovery. So far I'm 2 days in. My main driver for coming here was to put an end to my porn and cam chat addiction. Im in an incredible anxious state, mainly due to absolutely convincing myself I am going to be arrested because of the amount of time I spent on Omegle and other cam chat sites and how out of control I was. I can't actually remember what I was doing its all just a grey haze but I exposed myself 100s of times. My wife and family have no idea, and if I them her about this everything will be over. I can barely eat and just want to go to sleep. Maybe I cam completely blowing things out of proportion but I just wanted to share this extreme thought process with someone. Its sending me into a downwards spiral of shame and guilt which I can't get out of. I need to get ahold of it because its already affecting my work and personal life. My head is fuzzy and I'm just staring into the distance. My first inclination is to PMO - which I am holding back from.